My First Thug

Chapter THIRTYSEVEN.

I come from the fourth time and he stopped.

He kissed me up my stomach and pulled my legs up over his shoulders then entered in me.

I didn't even know I was that flexible! Plus that sh*t was painful.

"Ouch sh*t!" I screamed out.

"Awe, that poor baby." he said kissing on my neck and leaving his mark.

I was clawing the mess out of his back.

30 minutes later, after me coming 6 times out of his two he was bout to come again.

He took of the condom and come on my stomach, not my mouth or my face but stomach.

"Nasty axs." I said getting up going to the bathroom.

I got in the shower and Ryan got in with me.

He started fingering me while washing my body.

It felt so good.

We waited til the shower for cold to get out.

"Now that was amazing." he said pulling me on his lap.

"Well, thanks. I never had it like that before." I said kissing on his neck then leaving my mark.

Which I did a couple if time tonight.

"Stop, before it goes down again." he said getting up of the bed.

He took the sheets off the bed and and put news on.

I looked at the clock and it was 11:58 and we got school tomorrow.

"I'm finna go." I said.

"No, bring to axs her here." Ryan said.

I did what I was told and he flipped me on the bed with him on top.

"I love you." he said looking at me.

"I know, I love you too." I said

"And do you know I'll never hurt you."

"No, I don't know. You don't even know so don't say that." I said.

"But I do know." he said kissing me.

He walked me to my car and I got in. He kissed me and waited til I left out the driveway.

I pulled to my house at around 12 and went inside.

"Ma?" I yelled.

I went into her room and she was asleep.

I went and put on my night clothes and climbed in the bed.

My phone started playing Earned It and i knew it was Ryan.

"Hey, I'm home." I said.

"Good. Goodnight Beautiful." he said.

"Good night."

I hung up and went to sleep.

*next morning*

I woke up and got into the shower.

I brushed my teeth and went into the closet.

I grabbed a pink crop, grayish joggers and my pink converses (in picture).

I got my hair half up in a bun and the rest down.

I put on clear lip gloss and mascara.

Ryan texted me he was outside so I grabbed my stuff and told my mama I was gone.

I got in and we rode to school. When I went in fist hour Terrance and Tray wasn't here.

I got in my seat and sat and did my work.

I was worried about my brother not being in class. He's a senior and I don't want him to fail.

I was on my way to gym class when Terrence called me.

"N*gga where are you? I didn't see you in first hour today." I said.

"Ummm Noami, I don't know how to tell you this."

"Tell me what?" I asked.

"What class are you in?" he asked.

"On my way to gym? Why?" I asked.

"I'm on way to get you." he said then hanging up.

I was worried as hell. 15 minutes later he texted me and said he was outside.

I got into the car and he was smoking a blunt.

"So what do you have to tell me?" I asked.

"You'll need this." he said handing me the blunt and pulling out of the parking lot.

I hit it three times and gave it back to him.

"So, what up?" I asked.

"Umm, I really don't know how to tell you this." he said again.

"What the hell is it Terrence! Just tell me." I said getting mad.

"Tray for shot and he's in the hospital. And we don't know if he's going to make it." he said.

"What?" I said about to cry.

"I'm sorry."

I broke down in that seat. I started to regret everything that happened between us. I started to regret having sex Ryan. I would give anything to have my baby back.

We pulled into the hospital parking lot and Terrence brought me into a hug.

"I'm so sorry lil sis." he said.

He held my hand as we walked into the hospital room.

All of his crew was in the there: Antonio, Zan, Jacques, Jai, and CJ.

When I looked at CJ and he was in a case.

"What happened?" I asked.

"We was in the trap house and I found out another gang was coming. I tried to get him out but he said he was ready to died. He also said of he can't have you then he have nothing." he explained.

I broke down again.

"Family of Trayvon Lucas." the doctor said.

I just sat there while everyone else got up.

"How is he?" CJ asked.

"Well, surgery went better than expected. Also, he's in a coma, we don't know when he's going to wake up or if he's ever coming to wake up." he said.

Once he said that I broke down again. I didn't know what to do.

Terrence came over and hugged me.

"I'm sorry." the doctor said leaving.

"See Noami! All you had to do was go back to him again, give him another chase! But no you wanna go and hoe with that other n*gga! Now my n*gga in here fighting for his fcken life!" Jai yelled.

"Hold the hell on. Don't call my sister a hoe." Terrence said getting up.

"I didn't call her a hoe, I said she went out and hoed. There's a difference." Jai said.

"Look we don't need this. Our n*gga laying up in that bed needing us to stay strong." CJ said.

"Look Jai, I'm sorry but he cheated on me! He almost hit me and he hurt me too." I said crying.

"He even made me abort our baby." I added.

"Wait you was pregnant?" Terrence asked.

"Yes, now I'm even more glad that I'm not because look where I'm standing. My ex is a drug dealer who cheats on me, that's not what I wanted my child to grow up in." I said.

"I'm sorry Noami." Jai said hugging me.

"Y'all can go in and see him now. " the doctor said.

"When we go in guys. Promise we'll be strong." CJ said.

"No promises." I said

"I know, I wasn't talking bout you." he said.