wild beauty

revelation

As he continued to kiss me passionately, a dangerous voice ringing my head ,as if saying ' Tanga ka ba? ba't ka nag papakiss sa kaaway , ba't ka nag eenjoy, ang tanong bakit nga ba? He's a good kisser, as simple as that, then what about the throbbing heart? so weird , at takot ako sa revelation na ito, na sa ngayon di ko pa alam kung ano tong pakiramdam. bago ito sa akin at kailanman di ako nagpaparaya ng ganito sa mga nagging nobyo ko. at ang masama pa , dito pa sa cR ko ito ginagawa, at bakit sa kanya pa?

I felt, his hand slithering, touching me, making me moan in pleasure, my mind was completely in haze, wala na akong paki. basta ang masarap na sensation na ito ay napakasarap talaga ,be it in the Cr ,or where -ever kung ito ang magbibigay sa iyo ng ganitong kaligayahan , malamang mawiwindang din ang iyong utak. when suddenly he stopped.I open my eyes , and our eyes met, lust, passion, was written on his burning flames eyes, he was in need, as she was in need also for something. as if they are hungry for something. goodness she had never seen a more handsome guy than he is. he was oozing in sexiness , with a slight redness in his cheeks as if blushing for something..he was simply beautiful.

"Why you stop?" wala sa wisyo ko, I forgotten that this guy was other than my enemy.

He sigh, and look at me, sexily," you are passionate , the same girl i've met a month ago, so why are you pretending you don't even know me at all? you were flirting with my brother earlier and now ? which is it, are you some kind of A_" napailing parang na lulon nito ang dila pabalik "A slut," tuloy ko sa ano mang sasabihin niya.

so hurt her chest was in pain, she was insulted. yet bakit nga ba ako slut, pagdating dito? noong una, naibigay ko yung virginity ko sa kanya, I've kissed him, in front of so many people, and now i was practically making love of him, kundi pa ito tumigil god knows, baka may nangyari na naman at dito pa mismo sa CR.

"release me now, nawalan na ako ng gana, siguro ganun ka din, ka,kawalang gana nga naman kung sa slut na tulad ko, ang ka-anuhan mo,"I cannot say the right term, without blushing so i played it safe. "And please, I can't even remember what exactly happened that night so.....can we just forget everything?" I plead. "Di naman siguro mahirap yun, sa kabayaran ng puri ko,"

natigilan ito, sinamantala ko iyon at lumabas na ako sa CR , para kasing maiiyak na ako, sa insulto , at sa inis ko sa aking sarili, dahil nga naparukop ko sa tukso. your an idiot Ariana, tanga ka talaga.

Husto namang nasa hallway na ako, nakita ko si Arcel kausap si Miss maid kanina na nagturo sa akin sa CR. napansin siya marahil kaya lumingon sa gawi ko, I saw a relief flooded in Arcel handsome face, kakatwa bakit wala na iyong appeal sa kanya. kumbaga sa pagkain, na nawa na siya.

"There you are, I thought you got lost," he said, "oR di kaya na I_flush ka na, sa inodoro, " he joked." I'm glad you are fine," he gave him a gentle smile.

nawala yung agam agam ko sa ngiting iyon, gumaan yung pakiramdam ko, at bumalik yung sigla ko, Arcel had a charm to draw people in with him, katunayan siya na, " Girls, are scary when we are in a comfort room you know, lot's and lot's happens, we wanted to look good so we take couple of minutes to freshen up, and lots and lots happen like making out in the Cr probably 'as if she can say that.

He stare at me, and he chuckled, " I think, you are fine in your bare face, total wala ka namang dapat takpan, And I mean what i 've said, you got an angelic face, or more like a goddess ,"

He offer his arms, for her at umangkla ako doon, " You are a good man Arcel, I wish you had my heart," sinabi ko at sumandig ako sa kanya while we are walking heading for the elevator nearby. I felt him stiffen, for a moment.

Pagdating namin sa Sala kung saan nakaupo na ang lahat , at tanging sila na lamang ang hinihintay , of course including him, nakaupo ito sa single seater.

Umupo kami , opposite nilang lahat , naramdaman ko gina gap ni Arcel ang aking palad, di ko iyon ipiniksi. I love his warmth at wala naman sigurong masama doon lalo sa mga sandaling ito.

"You two make a good couple ,i'm glad at mukhang magkakasundo kayo, alam niyo ba na ipinagkasundo namin kayong dalawa?" si Papa Marcus.

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Di na ako nabigla, i knew this coming pero nang hinayang ako, I wish at this moment si Azrel ang aking fiancee, Bakit ba ganito ang aking nararamdaman? bakit ba ako mamatay sa sobrang lungkot at panghihinayang? dyata nahuhulog na ako sa aking kaaway? di maari.

"I think we better think this through , Pa, Ma, Tita , Tito, let's Ariana decide, kung sa akin wala akong atungal. I, fell in love for her at first , pero di naman ako masaya kung alam kung malulungkot lamang siya sa piling ko, I think...it's the best way,"

lalo akong na guilty, Arcel don't deserve her, she was already tainted at sa kapatid pa mandin niya so anong karapatan niya na tanggapin ang pagmamahal nito , Wala, ni isang katiting.

" I think, tama si Arcel, after all, i have someone in my heart, and it's unfair on him,"

ewan ko kung saan nanggaling ang lakas ng aking loob sa mga sandaling ito.basta ang alam ko, nagpapakatotoo lamang ako, mahirap at nakakonsensyang lokohin ang tulad ni Arcel , mabait , maginoo, at di bastos.

ang lalaking masarap mahalin, at masarap magmahal, but life is unpredictable , kasi bakit nag ka entangled ang mga buhay nilang tatlo. siya, si arcel, at Azrel.

bakit pa kasi ma pag-biro ang tadhana at sa lahat ba naman bakit siya ang beniro ng ganito?sino ba kasi ang nagtala sa kanyang kapalaran at ng matanong nga, ng harap harapan bakit siya, pinahihirapan ng ganito? as if she was choosing between a mountain and a sea , at saan ba kasi na katala ang kanyang destiny....haist mukhang ang haba pa ng journey ang aking buhay.