The Secret Of Our Universe | THE PHANTAZEIN SERIES 2

Chapter 1 ~ my dreams

[ Kali Marie Ortiz ]

I know when I open my eyes, was that the world was somehow different. I awake my self forcefully when I dreaming about something sureal, I lay quite still, not lifting my dizzy head, trying to remember my dreams and configure the reality where I in but I couldn't understand why I feel exhausted everytime I awake from a long dreams.

“Here I go again!” I shouted while I hurrying to slipped out from my bedsheets and went to my bathroom. Ipinuyod ko ang wavy blonde hair ko pataas at nagkukumahog ako’ng nilagyan ng toothpaste ang toothbrush ko habang iniirapan ang sarili sa salamin. “I’m late again” I sighed heavily. Si Lola talaga hindi man lang ako ginising alam niya naman na may pasok pa ‘ko this friday e’ pero kahit nagmamadali ako, I manage to take a bathe and be presentable to go to school.

“You’re late again. Tell me. Saang lugar ka na naman nakapaglakbay?” Bungad sa akin na’ng pinsan ko’ng si Melly. Ang mama niya at si Papa ay magkapatid. Siya lang ang close ko’ng pinsan. Palagi rin siya’ng nasa tabi ko kahit noon pa kaya alam niya ang tungkol sa mga nangyayari sa akin.

Melly was sweet and calm, she's pretty and open-minded kaya sa kanya ko ipinagkakatiwala ang sikreto ko. We're same age and height.

“I went to Paris” I whispered to her at nakita ko na kumislap ang kanya’ng mga mata. Melly was funny but sometimes she's freaking serious. Minsan natatakot ako sa kanya dahil mukha’ng mas naniniwala pa siya na totoo ang lahat ng kwento ko, samantala’ng ako iniisip ko na nababaliw na ‘ko.

“That was a fantastic dreams!” She yelled, pinagtinginan tuloy kami ng mga kaklase namin kaya tumahimik na lang si Melly.

“Indeed. Pero alam mo cous' hindi ko na sure ko’ng iyon talaga ang gusto ko sa buhay.” Alam niya ang ibig ko’ng sabihin kaya tumango na lang siya. Sakto naman ang pagpasok ng teacher namin sa first subject.

‘Ano nga ba talaga ang pangarap ko sa buhay? My greatest dreams.’ Ang hirap sagutin diba? Because we're matured at mayroon na’ng kamalayan ang utak natin kaya hindi na tayo agad-agad sumasagot sa tanong na alam natin na walang kasiguraduhang sagot.

But when I was a kid, I remembered someone ask me the same question. ‘What is your dream in life?’ I never hesitant to answered that question, “ I want to travel around the world.” That’s easy right? A simple question for a young mind. Pero ngayon na may mga sarili’ng utak na tayo. We found it as the most difficult question in our entire life. Especially for those people who’s undecided yet, for those people keeping all night alive just to analyze what they want to be. It’s hard for those human being who lost their souls and interest due to different reasons and situations.

It’s hard to answer when you really don’t know your passions, your talents or your ambition. Some says you’ll find it easier to choose your dreams base on what you love to do, for instance mahilig ka kumanta then your dream is to become a singer, kapag magaling ka sa math or calculation you will become an engineer. If you love the universe then maybe you will become astronaut or scientist.

Ganoon lang kadali diba? Sana ganoon din talaga kadali para sa akin because until now ay hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano talaga ang gusto ko sa buhay. I found myself not happy reaching my dreams easily. Oo, tama ang nalaman mo at hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa bagay na iyon. Until now, I still not believe about this peculiar things. Magugulat ka na lang na bigla ka na lang mapupunta sa mga lugar na dati ay pinapangarap mo lang. ‘How you should do if your dream came true in just a blink of an eyes? Ano ba dapat mo’ng maramdaman? Dapat ka ba’ng matakot o maging masaya na lang?

I, Kali Marie Ortiz. Since young my dream is to travel around the world because I was so curious if what's the real shape of Earth ( is it flat or sphere ) I also obsessed seeing a different types of people, their culture, their foods. And I'm a claustrophobic person I hate staying in one place for a long time, I feel suffocating in a dark or close places, that's why I love to travel outside my world, my comfort zone. Shallow right? Except when my lifestyle changed drastically then impossible things happened to me lately, that dreams vanished.