I Didn't Mean It

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Angst anyone? Theres fluff at the end. This happens after the events of season 3. !Mentions of Suicide!


The Port Mafia and the ADA were having a party celebrating their victory on their mission where they had a truce. Though, some of the members didn't get along it was still a enjoyable party for both organizations. Except for one person

Chuuya was sitting at the counter in the small bar, Lupin, where the organizations decided to have their celebration party. Chuuya was sitting in peace until a certain bandage wasting maniac sat next to him.

Chuuya's POV

"Why hello Chuuya, drinking as usual I see." Dazai teasingly said as he order a drink and I took a big gulp from my wine glass.

"If I'm gonna have to deal with a suicidal maniac like you, then yes I'm drinking." I retorted taking another quick sip of wine.

"You wound me Chuuya!" Dazai put a hand over his heart like he was fatality wounded.

"Give me a break." I sighed. 

"Oh, but I love bugging you Chuuya! It is so entertaining." Dazai said poking my arm a few times.

I rubbed my temples and sighed putting my glass down with a clink, "I feel bad for your coworkers. Having to deal with you everyday. Having to fetch you when you try to commit suicide."

"At least I never get backstabbed by my friends and family."

That hurt more than I expected.

Dazai was never nice to me so I should expect his right? 

Dazai kept joking, as he would call it. I just sat there, stunned. As Dazai kept making remarks I felt something light roll down my cheek. A tear? I was crying. I couldn't keep a sniff in and of course that bastard had to hear it. I thought he'd make fun of me like always, but he just sat there starring at me. I stood up and ran out of the bar, Kouyou tried to stop me but I just pushed past her. I left the bar and went into the parking lot. I got on my motorcycle and left.

I made it home after about 10 minutes. I parked my motorcycle out front and went inside my house. I slammed the door shut and slid down it. I leaned my head against the hard wood door and started at the ceiling. 

I stayed like that for who knows how long until i slightly jumped at the sound of someone knocking on the door.

"Chuuya! I know you're in there!" It was Dazai. I really didn't want to talk to him right now, "Chuuya!" he repeated when I didn't answer.

"Go away." I said quietly putting my head on my knees.

"Chuuya please open the door! I didn't mean it!" Dazai yelled again trying to open the door but it was locked.

"Yeah, you never mean it." I mocked.

"Chuuy-"

"Dazai! Just... just leave me alone, please." I couldn't do this right now. Dazai did as I asked and he left without a word.

I finally got up and went to the kitchen. I grabbed a bottle of my favorite wine and took it to my room. I laid in bed leaning against the back bored. Drinking straight from the bottle till it was all gone. Now I was too drunk to feel anything. I placed the bottle on the bedside table and fell asleep.

The Next Day

Waking up and feeling like shit from a hangover, I just laid there starring at the ceiling.

"God why did I get all worked up over something so stupid." 

It didn't feel stupid.

I got out of bed and headed toward the bathroom. I splashed water in my face from the sink.

I headed back to my bedroom and grabbd my phone. I called Kouyou.

"Hey, I'm not coming to work today." I said laying back on the bed.

"Okay, I'll inform Mori. Chuuya, why did you leave the party so angry?" Kouyou asked.

"Don't worry about it. Something stupid."

"Doesn't seem stupid if you're skipping work." Kouyou said worried

"I just don't wanna talk about it."

"Alright, you know you can always talk to me."

"I know. I just need a day off." I said shutting my eyes tight.

"Okay then."

"Alright. Bye Kouyou, thank you."

"Goodbye."

After I ended the call with Kouyou. I got up and headed to the kitchen, but once I got there I instantly regretted it.

"Good morning." a certain brunette with bandages said as he placed two plates of food on the table.

"When I say go away I don't mean make me breakfast." I said walking over to the table.

"Chuuya, I'm really sorry about last night." Dazai said not breaking eye contact with me.

"No you're not."  

"Yes, I am. I got carried away and wasn't thinking."

"Yeah sure." I said. Ahh great I was crying again.

I tried to cover my face but Dazai's hand grabbed my wrist and kept them from my face. He let go of one of my wrist and grabbed my chin making me look at him. Dazai whipped away some of my tears with his thumb. He then held me in a tight embrace, he stroked my hair and rubbed my back. 

"Chuuya I really am sorry. Please forgive me." Dazai whispered into my ear.

I didn't say anything, I didn't need to. I just hugged Dazai back. He then picked me up with my legs around his waist and my head resting between his should and neck. Dazai brought me to my bedroom and laid me on the bed. He then laid down next to me pulling me into his arms. Out of everything Dazai could've done he just laid down with me, like we were a couple. I always told myself I hated Dazai and he hated me but maybe there was something else there. Dazai played with my hair and I soon started to fall asleep, but right before I was about to fall asleep I heard some thing I never thought I would hear.

"I love you, Chuuya." Dazai said softly and quietly into my ear.

I looked up at him right into his eyes.

"You're not lying?" I didn't want to get my feelings hurt, not again.

"I'm not lying Chuuya. I love you. I love Chuuya Nakahara." Dazai reassured me. He pulled me closer.

"I... I love you too." I said into his chest blushing.

"I'm glad." thats all I heard Dazai say before I fell asleep into his arms.



Hello, I didn't edit this story (I was too lazy) so there might be some mistakes. 




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