No one ever understands

I thought i loved you

I thought I loved you
I thought you were perfect for me
I thought I was happy
I thought I was finally free

Then free turns into torture and turns into so much worse, a 13 year old getting groomed by men a lot older then them. A 13 year old "dating" an 18 year old 20 year old and sometimes older because they think that they are in love. A 13 year old being groomed and never truly loved just taken advantage of and used for sex. All of this happened because they thought that they were worthless, since the age of 10 they felt nothing they got over sexualized and never truly knew what love was so they looked for it in older guys because those were the only people who actually understood what they were going through. After years of the torture they were put through being passed from one man to the next like a sex you they finally had enough and said fuck you to everyone who had ever tried to love them, because they knew that all of that so called "love" was fake and that no one could ever actually love them. That's when they met him a nice kind guy their own age who they used to be friends with an just reconnected, a guy who ended up dating their friend and when those two broke up he started to flirt with them still 13 and thinking that this boy loved them they started to flirt back, and when they finally told him how they truly felt about him. He ghosted them and told everyone what they had said to him and now they had no one, they got bullied and made fun of left and right, they couldn't live their life in peace and even at home when they finally felt like they could relax their siblings bullied them and made fun of them and drove them back down the depression and suicidal hole that they dug and claw their way out of not too long ago.

Now they know that nobody could ever truly love them other then older guys...

So they decided that maybe life wasn't worth it after all