"Why? may ginawa ba siya sa'yo?" Tanong siya kay Janhae.
May ginawa ba ako?
"Oo! ginawa niya akong katawa-tawa sa lahat ng classmates ko!" Nagulat ako ng bigla siyang napiyok sa sariling sigaw.
What? hindi ko naman ginawa 'yon ah.
"What?! Javen what did you do?!" Binalingan ako ng tingin ni Mommy at gusto ko nalang mapamura dahil wala naman akong ginawa!
And she raised her voice at me. . . and this is the first time.
Wag niyong sabihing pati si Mommy ay sasaktan nadin ako?
"No mom. I didn't do anything, and I don't know what's her talking about." Sabi ko at yumuko ng tumawa na naman si Janhae ng sarkastiko.
What's wrong with her?
"Hah! really Javen? you didn't do anything? E potangina ikaw lang naman gumawa ng sketch namin!" Napabalik ako ng tingin sa kanya at pilit na inintindi ang sinabi niya. My scetch?. . . Did I do it wrong?. . . E sinunod ko naman ang sabi niya ah.
Naguguluhan akong tumitig sa kanya.
"Why? may mali ba sa gawa ko? I followed your instructions, what's wrong with that?"
"I told you to make it simple! you should used only pencil at hindi na nilagyan ng black pen! now tell me?! you really followed my instructions?! You didn't! ang tanga!"
I gulped so hard trying to hold my emotions. There, I was fucked up again.
She called me stupid.
And that's true.
She really told me to used only pencil because their teacher told them to make it simple, but I didn't know that it would turned out wrong because of my wants and that is to make the scetch nifty but simple.
But fuck I was wrong.
"I'm sorry." 'Yan lang ang nasabi ko dahil hindi ko na alam ang nararamdaman. I was too doomed.
She chuckled sarcastically again.
"Sorry?! tangina kung hindi lang ako nag-makaawa na kahit yung pagdeliver nalang namin ng report ang scoran niya at hindi nalang ang punyetang scetch na gawa mo!"
I felt like I hit by a big rock. It's hurt me so much. I didn't know she will burst out like this, I mean this is too much. She can talk to me in a nice way and I would do anything to make it up for her, kung pwede ako ang kakausap sa teacher niya e.
"I'm sorry J-Jan. . . I don't know it will turned out like this, I didn't expect this really. I-I'm so very sorry. . ." I tried my best to step forward to hold her hand but she shoved me away.
"You didn't expect this?! You fucking liar! Palibhasa kasi gusto mong maging bida-bida para mapuri ang gawa mo!" I snapped back. What did she say? Gusto kong mapuri ang gawa ko?, hindi. Dahil ito ang gusto kong gawin, at hindi ko kailangan ng iba para ijudge lang ang gawa ko, pero masakit pala talaga, lalo na galing sa bibig ng kapatid mo.
"You know that's not true." I firmly said.
Nakita ko ang sakit sa mata niya, bakit siya nasasaktan gayong ako naman ang sinaktan niya?
"Yes it is! You think, I will thank you for doing that fucking scetch?! No way! I regretted by asking for your help, dahil hindi naman maganda e, you know what your work suits for?"
Lumapit siya sa'kin at ngumisi.
"Sa basurahan."
Napatulala ako sa kawalan dahil sa sinabi niya.
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Golden Scenery
FanfictionAll the people in this world has a meaning to lived. But the world is just too cruel for us, we would faced a lot of challenges and circumstances and as a human being sometimes, we can't handle if what the real world gave us and that's the slap of r...
