Why Do You Care? | Todoroki Angst, BakuTodo

CHapter 19 - Fight

Katsuki POV: 

It's now been 2 weeks since Shoto was admitted to the hospital he was getting discharged today afternoon so I and the Bakusquad decided to go and visit him. After school ended I was finally able to go and see Shoto again, we saw each other every day but it was still so uncomfortable to sleep in my bed alone knowing he was sleeping on an uncomfortable bed in the hospital, but anyways we hopped onto our bus and went to buy some cigarettes for Todoroki as a gift from our broke group, I bought him a box of chocolates since I knew he was trying hard to get better. When we arrived the hospital was more crowdy it seemed to be less peaceful there. We made our way to the open room where Sho was and now most of the people there were awake so we greeted them and wished everyone good health and healing, Sho was next to a window by the end so we were more relaxed to talk louder. 

- Todobabe! - hugged him Mina sobbing - I was so worried!

- Hey, Todoroki! How are you doing? - asked Kaminari and Kirishima

- Hi guys, I'm doing just fine, thanks! - he slightly smiled 

- Are you sure, you look pale are you cold, Roki? - asked confused Sero

- Yeah, I'm good I was just outside for a bit and it's pretty cold today, but really I'm fine.

- If you say so - Sero smiled

- Oh, here you can write the class from my notes - handed him a notebook Mina

- Thank you, Ashido-san 

- Hey! Told you it's Mina! Ashido-san is so formal like jeez - we stared laughing 

- We bought you your favorites and I have a present for you - I finally say 

- Hmm? - I hand him 3 packs of cigarettes and a box of chocolates. - Thank you Kats, that's very kind - He gave me a kiss on my cheek

- No problem - I heard the rest of our squad "Awww"ing at our fluff but I knew something was wrong, he was looking sad

- We'll leave you two alone for now and go out for a cig. - they left and I sat down on the bed

- So what's going on. - I ask he looks at me with a confused expression - C'mon Sho I can see if something is wrong. 

- It's nothing...

- What? Hey you know you can tell me even if its about me i won't be angry okay?

- It's just I don't understad why you bought me chocolets...

- I know you like chocolate, or at least you did like? You don't like it anymore.

- No, it's not that. It's, you do undarstand I'm anorexic right? I'm not gonna eat a box of chocolates, Kats. - he hands me the box of chocolates with tears in his eyes

- I thoght you were better, they wouldn't be sending you back to the dorms! - I say confussed, he laughes

- I'm not better, and I keep waiting for someone to figure that out! And they don't, I mean of course they don't beacuse as long as I say the riht thing and I act the right way they're happy, because that means that they cured me right? It's just like when I eat in front of you or anyone at all, you get so pround like you're a hero, like you fixed me! - he startes crying and shouting so everyone in the room was now staring at us

- My god Shoto, I never wanted to fix you I- 

- You want me to be normal, but I'm not and I'm never going to be! - he stands up and runs out of the room, I sit on the bed hoplessly staring at the floor

(This scene is from Red Band Society, were Leo nd Emma fight)

Maybe theier sandig him home because he didn't get better but maintained his weight? Maybe he should've stay here a bit more, but he doesn't seem to be any better rather than just maintaining this sick apperence. What should I do, what should I say, should I tell anyone? I started panicing as my thoughts ramble around our fight. It was our ever first fight when it came to Shos eating disorder. I was afraid he could do something to himself but I couldn't move and go search for him. All my fear I held in myslef for so long was now in one place. I fought with my boyfriend, with someone who I love, with my best friend about something so important that this fight could literally destroy our relationship...I shouldn't have bought these chocolates it's alll my fault.