stalker questioning

Tensions arise

  Rayne:

I walk-run to the back of the school building .Its walls crusty ,  the paint wearing off from decades of rain. I arrive at our usual spot , the crack between the wall and the rusting fence .
It always feels claustrophobic in there but im used to it by now.

I squeeze through cutting my lower arm but not registering the pain when I see Neal . His dirt brown eyes meet  with mine and I sheepishly smile but I dont get one back... when he does this it feels like he upercuts me and kicks me when I'm down."why does he have to get so distant every time we meet here to make out"

"Hey" ,I say.
"Hey" ,Neal responds his voice hoarse .
I walk towards him. And get all up in his face , millimeters from his plump lips...I wait for him to kiss me first but as usual he doesnt.
I grab his purple striped tie and push my chapped lips against his . He grabs my waist and moves me closer to his burly chest  as he moans inside my mouth ,  crimson red butterflies erupting inside of me.

Neal:

I love Rayne , I really do just not when it comes to making out with her .All the 'boys' have told me time and time again that I have  a bomb girlfriend witch I totally agree with. I just dont look at her body in that way .I lie to myself that this is what I want and on a day like today I actually believe it.
Rayne is grinding up on me her plaid skirt rubbing against my torn jeans.  Fuck I'm so hard ...Until I smell the eucalyptus ,  the memories start unwiding like gun fire .Im on the  cold floor ...theyre towering over me ...theyr'e pinning me on the  moss covered wal-

"NEAL!!NEALL!! ARE you okay??" Rayne screams into my ear .Fuck , it happened   again .
"Yeah , yeah I'm fine..."  , I manage   to choke up.
"I -I have to get get going I have hockey practice in an hour anyway".

Rayne looks at me  like I've told her ,  her 90 yr old Grandma died because her pet rattlesnake bit her  but I  dont care enough at the moment . Im about to leave when her phone beeps. Silence. "Aren't u gonna check that?"
Rayne angrily pulls out her phone ,  her hot pink sanrio phonecase ,  catching my eye.
A shadow passes over her face as she blinks tears away ,  hard !

"Is everything okay?"
"JUST GO !" , she screams at me .
I wanna prod her but who am I kidding pretending to be a good boyfriend after i cut our fun time short. Not even having the decency to explain myself.
But its on my mind way after my hockey practice...