dear barb,
i know i wasn't your favorite person, that title would go to nancy. and i understand why you didn't like me. nothing i ever did to you was out of the kindness of my heart. no attempt to hang out with you was made unless it would have made nancy like me a little more.
i wasn't the person you wanted for your best friend or yourself and i can't blame you. but i like to think i've changed from the person you knew in high school. your death was a wake up call to me, as well as the events that followed. i hope that if you were still alive, you'd like this version of me a little bit more because i certainly do.
i wanted to say sorry for everything i ever did you hurt you during the months we 'hung out'. it wasn't fair to hurt you because it made me feel better or because it made tommy and carol laugh. i'm sorry that your life ended in the pool of a guy who didn't care about you. and i'm sorry that i never checked up on you that night. i should have made sure you found the bathroom alright, should have given nancy clean clothes and let you two leave together.
but i didn't. and i realize how wrong that was. and i hope wherever you are, you can forgive me. because i really am sorry.
love,
steve harrington
