Natatakot ako na mawala siya. I love him. I love him so much. I just can't believe myself why I doubt for his love for me. Iyon ang pinagsisisihan ko ngayon.
"I understand what you did when you left me. You're a good and a loving sister to do all she can to save her brother. Hinangaan kita sa tatag mo. I fall harder because of that and I imagined when we have kids... Your... be that fierce too for our children..."
Mas napahikbi ako.
Oh. Claine...
"The way you left me was... sad. I pity myself at that time. Wala ka man lang paalam. I felt like you did just used me." Natawa siya and gaze at me again with those eyes, may namumuo na luha doon.
"Pero Hill mapapatawad kita kung babalik ka sa akin at iyon nga, bumalik. All my worries faded. I forgave you. And you accuse me now.... and believe that this is all just revenge."
Napailing ako. No... No...
"I'm sorry Clay... Please don't.... I'm sorry."
I tried to reach him and he obliged. Nahawakan ko kamay niya na nakahawak sa kaniyang buhok.
"I... I've been incomplete since my father died. I did my best to be okay. Pero hindi ko aakalain na mas malala pa sa hindi pagiging kompleto. My mom died and I can't do anything about it. I hated my mother before she died. Hindi ko naisip na nagmahal lang siya ng maling tao. Kaya bumabawi ako sa kapatid ko. My mom promised me to take care of him. And Claine even that means to used you. I'm sorry. I'm very sorry for what I did."
I cried in front of him.
"Shhhh... " He wipes my tears. "Stop saying sorry now."
Hinawakan niya ang magkabila kong pisngi, inangat niya ito para magtama ang tingin. "Do you love me?"
"Yes Claine. I love you!" mediyo pasigaw ko na sabi.
He chuckled and I can see the relief from his eyes. "Then trust me baby... "
I nodded. Lumapit ako sa kaniya at niyakap ng mahigpit.
He hugged me too. He murmured something. I hugged him more.
"Anong ginagawa ni Ariene so loob ng opisina mo?" hindi ko na napigilang tanungin.
"She brought me food and I did not accept it. Stop bringing her, Hill. I will make sure she will not hurt you and your brother."
This is I've been missing for years. And thinking my recent though about the ring makes me want to slap myself. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit hindi niya pa ako binibigyan ng ganoon. But it doesn't matter... Dinala niya ako sa kaniyang condo. We ate lunch then watch a movie after a while. I was thinking so many things while we are sitting on his living room, while just sitting like there's nothing to worry about. Ako, marami akong inaalala. His family, Ariene, everything... Iyong trabaho niya ngayon!
Chapter 40
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