In my Ugliness

💕 Chapter 15 💔

"Since it's a family house, when you hand over your position to another, you become a 'Gee' or a father. You have the right to call him your son and he'll call you father"

"Oh.... Wow"

"How is Sefa?" "She's a bit bruised" She paused reducing her voice, "She was almost raped, she was just in tears. I managed to put her to sleep" Tears filled her eyes but she fought it from pouring down.

"I really pity her"

"After the service, the sitting room is always crowded. We'll take a stroll and talk somewhere more private. I know a place around the corner. Let's hope it's still as private as it was!"

Kilahi's phone rang and she groaned, calls have been coming from everyone.

5:38 pm

Gbadamosi and Kilahi both strolled to the primary school behind the family house. They sat in front of a class room to have their conversation. "Why did you decide to stay in a place like this? I'm not saying it's bad. During my service year, the aim was privacy, I didn't want to share the room with anyone for personal reasons?" She asked slapping her lap, the whole school compound was infested with sand flies!

"You don't like sharing?"

"I was doing to protect my self esteem. Thank God house rent was cheap, you won't believe i payed 30k for the whole year. Didn't you think privacy was key? Did you ever try to redeploy?" Kilahi asked, she had no idea why she was asking.

Gbadamosi smiled, "Feels like an interview" "Answer, stop feeling yourself" she teased and he chuckled, "Yes. I didn't need to pick any form. My parents had the connections, direct connection, there was no doubt it will work. The wanted me to move back to Lagos so I can work in Gloth Construction"

"It didn't work?"

"Are you kidding me? You don't understand the kind of connection I mean, it worked but I rejected it. I felt like God had something else in plan for me. When I came here, I was at a point where I was struggling with a whole lot. I needed God's help, I grew up in a Christian home but it didn't stop me from going wayward. I had my first sex when I was eighteen, I wasn't fully eighteen yet. I planned out m life and it fell exactly how I wanted it. My first year in college, it was a freshman party and I was drunk, I had no idea how she looked like. I woke up wasted and.... I guess the fact that I had sex was quite evident. I did crazy things, even when I'll come back for holidays. There's always someone else in my bed. Crazy times" He paused stealing glances at Kilahi to see her reaction.

There was none, she was indifferent which was unlike her. "I expected to see a judgemental face" "Stop it, don't make me feel bad about myself" "Sorry." "Do you want to continue? If you don't want to, it's fine"

"People know all about it, it's not a secret. I was struggling with sex and sexual urge. When I turned twenty five, I decided to rededicate my life and stop fornicating but it was hard for me. I will come back from church, go in doors and satisfy myself, since I didn't want to fornicate any longer. If the feeling presses on for too long, I'll pick my phone and call the nearest girl friend. I had a few of them"

"Didn't you have a stable girlfriend?"

"We cut ties. It became a long distance relationship even though we were in the same country. We had different perspectives, she wanted to have fun and travel all around the world and I as at then, I didn't know what I wanted then and I guess we outgrew each other. We were fond of each other then, our parents concluded we'll get married"

Brenda! She assumed rubbing her hands over her legs to chase the flies away.

"I managed to overcome my addiction shortly before NYSC but the thoughts came in. It was hard because I relied on my strength, my first night here in Anambra, I stepped into the Orientation camp feeling like crap. It was supposed to be Lagos, somehow i was posted to Anambra and I was pissed. The first night here, I heard a music from the tent, there was no musical instrument just a lady singing. I was led to go, on realizing there was no keyboardist, overwhelming love was the song she was singing. I can still remember it, I decided to play. " He paused shutting his eyes reliving the memory.