What does it mean to be good enough?

Prologue

(The song above tells something about the story. It's like a little musical introduction to the novel😊)

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Phoenix

The same old, loud and ugly vibration echoes in the four walls of my bedroom signalising another morning.

A fresh start, like my mum would say.

Except it is not.

Are you wondering why this story starts with nothing original? With the typical scenario of a young adult or teenager not wanting to get out of bed and groaning when the alarm goes off?

Because my life is lame and boring and the same every day. I feel like I am not going anywhere, not moving forward or backwords. I am just as still as an iceberg that can melt at any moment if the temperature rises.

You are probably thinking just a teenager being lazy and having mood swings, right?

No, that is not it. In fact, it could not be further from the truth.

Many young adults and teenagers are being judged in today's world and their struggles crushed to "lack of effort" or "no will to learn" or "no will to look at life positively" and I am just one of them.

Dear reader, do you perhaps go through phases of not caring or tuning out or feeling like everyone is judging you when you are just trying to make it through the day? Do you feel like friends pressure you to do things you are not ready to do yet? Do you feel like your parents are doing the best they can but somehow they do not seem to understand what you are going through? Like they do not understand you at all? Or do you get the feeling that someone you know is going through something like this?

If "yes" is the answer to any of the above, then this is the book for you. Let's delve together into my story and find out the truth about many speculations made about my struggles and similar ones.

Hi, my dear readers! How are you?

I know it has been so long since I wrote a story in English. Let me tell you that I really wanted to but could not because I am doing everything else to get into university and I have to admit it is taking a lot of my time. Therefore I barely have any time to write. I admit that I began to write this story about six months ago and I still have not finished it. And before that I really wanted to improve my Spanish and focused on writing stories in Spanish. I have still and always will have more to learn from both languages. If you have any questions, comments or even feedback please write to me or comment here in the comment section. I will never be perfect and I admit I learn something new every day. And with your help I will learn even more😊

Also, I would like to thank you personally for your patience these years and your amazing support by investing your time in my stories. Every read, comment, vote, message motivate me immensely. I appreciate each one very much.

I always welcome positive comments and constructive criticism. However, I would like to ask you to refrain from unfriendly, hateful and hostile content. Wattpad is a warm, friendly community and I would like it to remain the way it is. Thank you for your understanding and the efforts you make to do so.

Warning: Reader, I would like to let you know that this story may contain brutally emotional content, as well as depression, anxiety situations with explicit detail both mental and physical. I understand fully if any of the themes mentioned trigger you and you are unsure or reluctant to read it. Please know that I would never want you to feel forced to read it.

I would like to open my heart and tell you that parts of this story are based on my personal experience. So, I know what it is liked to be depressed, to be anxious, to be scared of the outside world and many other things. And I would like to go further and tell you that I've cried while writing some chapters of this story. We are all human and that is beautiful.

And before signing off I would like to tell you that you are a wonderful, beautiful human being regardless of which books you read, what you tell society and what you don't and whether or not you are or have been emotionally broken. (Usually if you haven't been through an emotional or mental break down you know someone you has. It is not a rule though, so I do not assume).

To be honest I am not sure when I will start to update regularly once a week but I will try to do so at the end of January/ start of February. (Regardless of which date I pick I think I will update anyway on the 29th of January to celebrate my birthday with you guys!😊)

Hugs for everyone and a Happy New Year! 🎆🎆🎆🎆🎆

Yours in writing,

Victoria Ibáñez Moraru

PS. I hope you liked the prologue😊