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Egocentric

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You were a little different from other girls. You weren't girly, you didn't talk much with females nor boys, you hated socializing. You would stay silent and watch them carefully like they were wolves in sheep's clothing. You were a bit like your brother, Isagi Yoichi. You loved soccer and played it, in fact you helped your school's soccer team by being their support.

You never really played in an actual game before, but they knew your skills were beyond what you showed. The monster inside you hid it well, in their eyes you were an angel, but you know in fact you were way more than that. You had a selfish desire to satisfy anyone, but at the top was to use them for victory.

Since you had nothing much to do in soccer other than replacing boys while dressed as a male. You had the urge to show your true self but you wouldn't really be accepted as a girl. As much as you want to gauge their eyes, it was illegal. So you decided to play volleyball for all the free time you had. Besides that you played chess and was top of your class, you were a few months younger than Yoichi. You (y/n) Isagi are special, you could beat the crap out of anyone if you wanted to but let's keep that a secret.

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You were watching your brother play in the field to reach the finals. Ichinan vs Matsukage Kokuou, to say you were trying to add a bunch of skills to your talent was correct. You yourself were the star of the school, with your skill you were unpredictable. 'Wake the monster inside you nii-san' you thought, eyes moving around the field on the watch for Kira. You heard tada asking for a pass, knowing well that he would miss. You sighed, you predicted this lost yet you didn't care to change it. You were frowning at the loss of chance, yet you were dedicated to winning so you stood up and cheered from the sidelines "NII-SAN GO DO IT" you knew he would pass but it was worth a try. You hated losing but this was predicted as you were simply a "female" who can't play this sport.

""You can't play this sport" my ass this is such bullshit why do they expect so less of women who could probably change your sight of the world" you whispered at the wind as the goal was missed by tada. The sound of cheers for the other team deafened your hearing, you were inwardly gritting your teeth. You stopped yourself from cursing and ran to your brother dressed as a male to avoid suspecting of you being a girl. You hugged him ignoring the tears and apologies of tada and the others, you were shaking. If you were at the field that match you could've easily won, you could've devoured Kira Ryosuke, you could've scored without giving them a chance. That's how selfish you were, you couldn't care of you won by yourself, you wouldn't care if you even had a team. You had a huge difference from your brother when you show your true self, you were egocentric and you couldn't be more proud of hiding it so well.

You asked your brother to carry you, that was your way of telling him to hold me back so I won't break someone's arm. You both looked at Kira while talking to the reporter. The team was in front of the coach as you had to stand because you didn't want to burden your brother, and with that you noticed your silent brother.

'So you're rethinking that goal aren't you nii-san... It's ok to be selfish, in fact it's fine however don't let yourself end up like me. You would just be holding me back. So think and show the monster, awaken it, awaken your talent...!'

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A few years ago..

Both Y/N and Yoichi watched the game on the television, watching Europe's best player from the France team, Noel Noa. Y/n analyzed the game while Isagi watched it with an amazing expression.
As the years go by, Y/n watched her brother grow to leave and play soccer.
Y/n watched silently while smiling, 'this world always expects less of women' y/n thought remembering the fact that they denied her when they asked to play soccer but didn't decline your brother. "The world is cruel" you whispered to the wind, as you left to practice chess.

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You and Isagi walked home silently, your brother was silent as the wind. You saw kids staring at him as you both stopped walking, Isagi was in deep thought and you were just being you. You looked at him when he started shouting while he scared the kids. 'Tears huh' your face remained calm as his salty tears fell into the ground.

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Arriving, your mother peaked through the kitchen as your brother announced your lost and arrival.

"Too bad. I even made pork cutlet for good luck." She said, and you were speechless. He said it first before you did "You're supposed to eat it before the day of the game." And your father just dismissed that saying it was good. You sat beside him and heard your mother "A letter arrived for both of you from the Japan Football Union.." You didn't care but you were sure your nii-san did.

Next day

You and your brother stared at your letters and the sign that said "Japan Football Union", you stared silently as your brother stared at his letter like he was lost. "Hey! You're from Ichinan. Isagi right?" A familiar voice rang through your ears.

You faced the other way while you listen to them talking, until he asked who was behind the boy. You gulped and faced him with a small frown, "My name is Y/n Isagi, the fake male on the team". He was being nice, and you hated it. You tugger at Isagi's shirt and pulled h to the entrance with Kira following. You opened the door and saw a bunch of males in the huge room. 'Damn... Are there any other girls here' you hoped they did, but it seems you were wrong. The lights went out when you heard a voice you could recognize from a far.

'EGO!'

You thought excitedly, ignoring his speech and what would happen in the future. You honestly space out too much but it's fine. It's not like it'll kill you.

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So uhm how was it???

Y'all probably won't even answer but eh, more chapters since I seem to like blue lock more than ever. This is a new story btw and I could use some support with the amount of writer's block I have from the two of my most popular books.

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"No one tries to disqualify my brother without going through me asshole, if you do I'll skin you and make you my new rug."