I am so fucking mad at myself
All the time I’m mad at myself
Because I’m always the fucking problem
I try to help but I just fuck shit up
I can't even figure out my own damn mental health
And people are expecting so much from me
I just
I NEED A BREAK
I need to stop being mad at myself because I can't help other people
I know I need to help myself but I can’t do that when I fucking hate myself
But I can’t do that it's selfish and other people need my help
NO NO NO
THAT'S BULLSHIT and we all know it
This is why I’m so mad at myself I always think that
It’s not selfish to help yourself sometimes
But I refuse to think that way
It's not selfish and I know it but I refuse to accept that fact
My friends don't put me first so why do I put them first
Why are they on a pedestal while I’m 6 feet under
I think I matter to them at least I hope I do
But I don't know if I do
Do I matter?
Even a little bit
Do I even matter to anyone…..
