~Imperfect madness~

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It's like the other day I was at home watching quiet television, until suddenly I noticed that someone touched my shoulder, I instinctively grabbed him by the forearm, with enough force to break the radius and the cuvito at the same time, I pulled him forward and threw him straight to the glass table in front of the sofa, the glass broke into thousands of tiny pieces, I did not take much importance to the puddle of that thick crimson liquid that was all over the floor and carpet; I approached the unknown "attacker" and what I saw made my blood run cold. ...it was my mother!

I was in a trance watching the scarlet liquid coming out of her head, I didn't realize how long I was admiring the scene until I realized it was my mother lying on the carpet among a pile of glass shards from the table, bleeding from the left side of her head and perhaps with a broken radio and a broken cuvito.

Other people would panic at such a grotesque scene and worry to the point of dying of an attack of anguish, but not me, I just stared at what I would do with that inert, useless and cold corpse; until the most brilliant idea of all came to my mind...

-Two days later-

I invited all my "friends" to a dinner party at my house, I was cooking in the kitchen while the others were in the living room, sometimes they would show up to help or just to see what I would have to eat, I of course refused to let them help me or see what I was doing with the excuse that they would ruin the surprise, after that they all went back to the living room from which came laughter provoked by the stories they told or jokes that made no sense at all.

When I finished preparing everything, I called them to go to the dining room, it was everyone's surprise to see how there were different trays with a lid that hid the food I had been preparing for 3 hours, before lifting the first lid I said: "Enjoy, my mother gave me the recipe and the ingredients for you hehe. "They were a little surprised, more than the strange laughter I let out, not to have seen my mother anywhere and that every time someone came to the house she started to tell all kinds of things that humiliated me in front of the guests, before they gestured a word I lifted the lids and they were left with confused looks, they looked at each other confused like little kids, adorable....

A few minutes went by until one of them dared to eat, after him the others followed him, a few of them looked at me in amazement until one of them asked me: "What kind of meat is it", poor fool, "oh, did you like it? I have a lot of this kind of meat left over if you want to come and I'll give you a portion in a taper. "She lit up her eyes and nodded as she got up from her seat, I went into the kitchen first and walked over to a knife and grabbed it firmly and waited for her to come in and join me at the fridge, her excited face changed to one of horror, fear for her life, she turned to me with terrified eyes like those of a lost and frightened lamb:-"you must be joking! "I turned my head to the side implying that she was serious, she paled and turned to start running and screaming to warn the others that what they were eating was my own recently deceased mother, In a reflexive move I put the knife to her neck and cut her throat drowning her in her own blood splattering all over me argh I hate getting blood all over me it's so hard to get it off, I took off my apron and left it lying to the right of the innocently stupid Anne's body and walked out of the kitchen like it was nothing, the others asked about the missing one, I said, "Oh yes! - "oh yes! She was so happy to have this kind of meat that she took it home with her," they nodded somewhat suspiciously.

When it was already twelve o'clock at night some of them had gone home, stupid they will miss all the fun tonight, there were three people left Michael, Molly and Edd, poor them hehe, they three decided to sleep here; I left my mother's room to Michael and Edd when these two came up I was going to tell the last one that she could stay in my room, I was looking forward to see her sleeping she was the only one I wanted alive near me, when she said without seeing or foreseeing it, "What have you done to Anne? -What have you done to Anne? She never leaves a place without saying goodbye to everyone"- my heart felt like it was breaking into thousands of microscopic pieces, did she care more for an ignorant girl than for me? I laughed playing the fool:-"Oops, you caught me hehe what a shame... I tried to flirt with her, she got scared and left angry, and I made up that excuse so as not to look ridiculous."- Not even God himself could have come up with a better idea to lie, Molly looked at me with distrust:
-I'll believe you as soon as I see your kitchen..."-my lie went to hell... "All right, but first let me pick it up a little bit, I've made a fool of myself enough today..."-This one was looking at her with a raised eyebrow and nodded with a sigh.

I went into the kitchen and dragged Anne's immobile body to the garden area, I noticed that there were stains on the floor from having dragged her so I took out the mop and tried to scrub the floor quickly when I finished I placed a knife near my reach, just in case...
I gave Molly the go-ahead to come in, she came in suspiciously and started to check the floor and the countertop, there was nothing, but they were insignificant leftovers from dinner, everything was going perfectly until... - "Open the fridge I want to check it"- my blood froze, I was begging God to please everything but having to finish with the secret love of my life...

I took advantage of the fact that she wasn't looking to grab the knife while I approached the appliance and slowly opened the door praying that everything had disappeared, I let her look inside the appliance, she changed her facial expression to one of terror as if she was going to have an anxiety attack, she turned to me with horror and pushed me-"Monster! That's what you are, how could you do that to your mother!

I don't know who was worse if she was in her hysteria attack or me in my total blockage, I didn't want my body to react because I wouldn't contain myself, I didn't want to do it, but she pushed me again while shouting things like a monster, pulling me out of my blockage, without realizing I was on top of her smiling from ear to ear, without being conscious of what I was doing and what I wasn't doing, She was in tears asking me to let her go and not to kill her, the poor thing did not know that I did not control my body, she stopped screaming when she saw some drops of water falling on her face, I think she saw that I was crying trying to stop that smile that really hurt because of how hard I was gritting my teeth, fighting for control of my body with the knife raised above my head; all she did was watch me, I don't know if she was asking for pity or with pity for my inner struggle, I was distracted. .. I was distracted for a second to admire her so carefully that I didn't put any strength against my arms and I ended up stabbing the love of my life in the center of my chest but I couldn't stop myself, I kept stabbing her again and again and again while I cried unconditionally for my actions, as soon as I regained control I got up and ran away from her and went to a corner of the kitchen scared by my actions, I couldn't get the smile off my face no matter what I did until I punched myself and returned to my normal state, I crawled over to Molly's limp body and moved closer to where her heart was to try to listen to it. ...stunned silence...I had really killed her....

I stayed on my knees looking at my bloody hands as I cried....