Mahirat Stories

2.2 Captaincy

MSD'S POV:

I could feel him thinking and it was confirmed when he tightened his hug. I slowly starred, "Cheeku, tujhey mujh par bharosa hain?"
On my question he got his head up from my lap and said, "YE kaisa sawal hain ? Of course hain bhai"

I smiled at his sincerity and Cupped his face as I continued, "Toh baat kar na mujhsey bache. Kya hua hain bata na apne mahi bhai ko. Mere hote hue tu sab kuch akele kyun seh raha hain?"

"K-kya batau bhai. Kuch nahi hua hain-" I heard him struggle. I sighed i don't understand why has he picked up my worst trait of going through things alone out of all other traits.

"Dekh bacha, i know you very well and i know when you're lying and when not. If you think i forgot what you said admist your breakdown few months back then you're wrong. I know someone's hurting you, I know kuch toh hua hain. And you're probably hiding to protect them, me or protect our bond. I didn't push you as I felt you'll finally tell me something or at least give me a hint. But mere bhai ne mera worst trait uthaya hain and bada talent hasil kiya hain baatein chupane mein aur topics change karne mein. Not anymore abp nahin. I can clearly see tu kitna exhausted hain toh ab tu mujhey bata kya hua hain."

Hearing my words I saw his eyes started watering he broke the hug and started looking at his hand. I gave him some time to compose himself and kept patting his head. After few moments I heard a sob, immediately getting on my knees I hugged him and let him cry on my shoulder. I kept quiet didn't say a word, just patted his back as he needed this outburst.

After what felt ages he spoke, "B-bhai aa-aap k-kyun nahi ho team mein. A-aa-aap ke bina k-kuch thik nahi la-lagta. M-mujhse y-ye sab akele nahi hoga! im sorry. S-sab mujhey k-koste hain b-bhaiya s-sab. U-unko lagta h-hain M-mujhey  farak nahi padta... par Dard hota hain bohot dard hota hain. I-I'm so helpless bha-i sab sab dark hain kuch nahi samaj raha- aisa ky-kya karu ke t-theyll hurt me less"  

Rage was only thing i felt Hearing his words, the moment i get names, those people better start counting their days. I slowly patted his head too, I could feel him getting less jittery but he was still crying.

"Pata hain bhai, ye pressure- ye ye sab ke bavajut mein acha karsata hun! Abhi bhi cricket baaki hain mujhemein b-but dar lagta hain bhai. Ab-ab na darr lagta hain- pata nahi konsa match mera aakhri ho- ye mujhse mera cricket chin lenge-  aapko bhi chin lenge sab kuch khatam hoga- mein akela ho jaunga- kuch nahi rahega- aadha toh khatam hua bhai- khatam hua- apne sopa hua sab kho diya maine! I'm sorry bhai I'm sorry- aapne kya sochke mujhey captaincy di thi and Meine kya karke rakhdiya hain I'm sorry" I felt tears form in my eyes. 

This is when I decided to intervain, "Shh shh shh Bache shant hoja, koi mujhey ya cricket ko tujhse durr nahi kar sakta kabhi nahi. Hum do chize teri zindagi se permanently judi hui hain..hum nahi jaa rahe kahi bhi, kabhi bhi! Aur Kuch khatam nahi hua Bache! Kuch nahi khoya tune! Kyun soch raha hain tu aise shant hoja cheeku shaant hoja shhh"

Slowly he calmed down,he was still sobbing on my shoulders but it was less as compared to previous few minutes that sounds like an improvement.

Slowly I tried asking "Bacha hum bed pein baithe?"  He sniffed and nodded yes

Once I made him sit on the bed  I told him I'll get him some water and handed him a glass of water after few moments. I let him drink and then catch some breath. After few moments I asked him, "Tell me the names cheeku" getting straight to the point.