Surreal Notes

The Algorithm To Your Heart

Hindi alam ni Vicky kung marerelieve ba siya or mahihiya, kaya tinawagan niya agad si Des para hingin ang opinyon nito.

"Yow there sis, anong nangyari?" Des sounded a bit hyper, mukhang magkasama sila ni Kuya Jan ah.

"I don't know if I fucked up or if I did it well." Vicky started then continued to tell the not-so-anticipating conversation with Tristan "So, ano the former or the latter?"

"Surprisingly, I think it's the latter." Kagulat-gulat na sabi ng ate niya "First time mo lang kasing gawin at alam kong super awkward pa para sayo kaya okay na din yun, I know you did your best." Sabi ni Des na sobrang kaiba sa iniisip ni Vicky na sasabihin ni Des sa kanya.

"So I'll just continue dropping hints?" Tanong ni Vicky sa ate niya.

"Yep, kapag sa tingin mo he's getting the message then do step 3." Seryosong sabi ni Des sa kanya.

"Wait, what's step 3 again?"

"Hay, ano ba yan?" It's official, she is with Kuya Jan, ayaw niyang naiistorbo kapag kasama si Jan "Step 3 is to go talk to him na. Oras na para ipaalam mo na sa kanya na you want to get back together, clear things up. Oras na para sabihin mo sa kanya na mahal mo pa rin siya. Tandaan, walang mangyayari kapag wala kang ginawa."

Hindi maiwasan ni Vicky na kabahan sa step 3, what if she can't bring herself to do it? Kaya niya bang sabihin face to face kay Tristan yun?

Well, she's gonna have to find out for herself kaya she sighed deeply then proceeded to say goodbye to her ate Des "Okay thanks Ate Des, have a great time with Kuya Jan." She heard Des gasp from the other line before she ended the call.

Mali naman ate niya, mukhang hindi niya kaya ang step 2 at 3.

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After weeks of dropping hints (aka sending fake oh-sorry-wrong-send messages sa fb and fake sorry-that-i-bumped-into-you-ang-hirap-kasi-ng-quiz-sa-math-kanina encounters), Vicky's finally been able to set a date with Tristan. Noong una, ayaw niya pa talaga kaso naalala niya na she badly wants to be with the guy she really really really really really really likes (oh Carly Rae Jepsen never fails to give me LSS-worthy songs), she gathered up all her guts and asked him for a cup of coffee after ng kanilang second quarterly test (golly ang hirap talaga ng Trigo, nakatitig na nga lang si Vicky kanina sa papel eh). Buti nalang at nag-agree si Tristan kaya napawi na ang kaba niya.

But this isn't just a simple cup of coffee date, kinailangan pa ni Vicky na umuwi at magpalit ng damit, which by the way means a combo of a dress and high-heeled pair of shoes. Why this outfit? Well Vicky heard a rumor na type talaga ni Tristan ang mga girly-girls, not those type na nakasuot ng Converse sa date at nakajeans. At first, Vicky thought that this was very irrational kasi nagustuhan naman siya ni Tristan dati kahit hindi siya ganun. Pero pinaalala sa kanya ni Des na baka naman nagbago na si Tristan, her exact words were Baka naman hindi na siya yung Tristan na kilala mo.

As much as that really hurt, wala namang nagawa si Vicky kundi piliin ang pinakaflowery niyang dress (she looked like the Lito Atienza version but she didn't mind) at ang three-inches na heeled shoe na pinahiram sa kanya ng ate Des niya. To be honest, madapa-dapa talaga siya sa paglalakad pero kailangan niya 'tong gawin para magustuhan siya ulit ni Tristan.

Hinatid siya ni Des sa Bean Perk kung saan sila magka-cup of coffee date ni Tristan and to her surprise nandun na si Tristan in his stunning gray plaid polo shirt at jet black jeans (golly he looked really handsome). Nang makita siya ni Tristan ay agad siyang inalalayan nito papasok sa loob ng coffee shop.

"Wow Vicky you look really different." Amazed na sabi sa kanya ni Tristan as they took their seats.

"Good different or bad different?"

"Good different syempre." Tristan smiled genuinely kaya hindi napigilan ni Vicky na magsmile na din "You look really beautiful."

Okay, that's it. Kailangan ko nang gawin 'to, now na! Vicky thought, ayaw niyang dumating sa point na kakabahan siya ng sobra dahil sa kape.

"Uhm Tristan, I know that this is too early to say or too late or whatever," Vicky can't help but panic kaya tumayo siya, that's her way of pushing panic away, kaso sa sobrang pagpapanic niya eh nakalimutan niyang nakaheels siya at natumba siya.

Hay, bakit ngayon ka pa sumablay Karen Victoria?!

She was about to stand up when Tristan helped her to do so, now they were standing close to each other and the panic raced to Vicky's heart. "Are you okay?"

"Yes, sorry for that." She apologized then stood straight, she really needs to do this "I was just trying to say that I... I still love you. I still feel the same way for you, it never changed and it will always be you." The words flowed from Vicky's like it was meant to be said, like it's been trapped there for a long time and they wanted to be spoken.

"Uh I don't know what to say Vicky." Tristan said while looking bewildered.

Vicky was desperate to do this kaya out-of-nowhere she dropped to her knees and said the magic words "That one year was really lonely and I missed you so much, I never thought that I would meet a guy who is like...there's a reason why girls don't do this." Vicky sobbed not just because of her hurting knees but because she didn't know what words are the right ones to say. God, she was childish and –

"Vicky, I'm sorry for making you go this far." Tristan said then dropped to his knees too, he was looking directly at Vicky's eyes "I felt the hints and I gladly took them as a chance to get back with you, but I was too stupid to not see that you will do this. Akala ko hanggang hints ka lang at dates, I never thought you're going to really dress up and wear heels kahit na alam kong ayaw mo ng ganyang sapatos."

"Yes, there is a reason why girls don't do this, and it's because boys are the ones responsible to ask this type of question." Vicky heard Tristan's sincere voice "So, Karen Victoria Rodriguez, would you like to give us another shot?"

Vicky's tears stopped from falling and she beamed at the guy in front of her "Of course Tristan, of course."

Well kisses are for older people and luckily Vicky and Tristan knew their limits kaya they just hugged it out and ordered their favorite coffee together.

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Aw high school love is one of the sweetest loves a person can encounter, right? Co-written by Erika aka Des

Disclaimer: Mistakes I've committed are all mine.

This was written in 2015