Where do I even begin? My life just seems to go up and down like a roller coaster, sometimes it goes well sometimes it doesn't. Now, it just feels like I've reached the peak and am about to plummet down wherever depth these tracks lead me.
How do I even define a good day? A day that I haven't had thoughts of harming myself or a day where I haven't ruined my relationships with friends or family due to my self destructiveness? What even is a good day? I honestly can't say.
I hate this feeling. this intense feeling of emptiness that grows with every minor inconvenience I cause, that same feeling of my heart dropping when I hear something I wish I had never heard. Why must I feel these intense emotions? what is the purpose of this? I don't get it, why must feelings be this complicated?
Do I even have friends? does anyone even like me? It feels like I ruin everything for people, how am I supposed to believe that I'm fun to be around when it feels like I'm draining those around me? I thought I was making progress, finally healing, but with every further step I take, it seems as if I take two steps back??
what am I even doing at this point? if my actions lead me to where I am now, where exactly did I go wrong? why must I doubt everything and everyone around me, I just don't seem to understand
ESTÁS LEYENDO
My Heart And Other Black Holes
Historia CortaSimply an outlet for one's suffering. Each chapter is uploaded during a day filled with dread, I hope that those who've felt the same way I have learn to cope and heal. I hope that by the time I finish publishing every future chapter I've somewhat...
