I THOUGHT I WAS LUCKY (MileApo)

chapter 11

Meet me at 7 pm at "The Shining Star" restaurant , please .

The call ends .

Mile frozen for almost 5 minutes

What the fuck was that, why is he back , why now after i was getting my life back why is he showing up out of nowhere!!! No no no! I moved on, was i?? A million question runs in Mile's head ! And the most one was
HOW THE FUCK DID HE KNOW THAT MILE MOVED WITH HIS PARENTS????

Was Apo stalking him ?

Mile thought he moved on !!
He really thinks that he did , after all these months he was trying to heal himself, he started to be himself again

Goddamnit he started to feel happy.

Until this stupid call that ruined everything all the walls that he build around himself start to crushing .
His anxiety came back even worst ..

After hearing Apo's voice for a second , the first time after almost a year .

He start to breath fast and sweating, he felt dizzy he was hearing a voice from a far

"Mr phakphum! , Sir ? Please what is going on with you? Can you hear me? sir , are you okay? " The voice is near him now

Mile snap back to reality and he started to calm down slowly until he himself again

He realized that he is sitting in his couch in his office and his secretary is the one who was calling him earlier.

"Sorry Jane i don't feel good i think I'll head back to my house, cancel all my schedule for today " Mile tells her .

"You should really go home and rest, don't worry sir all things are under control and I'll do as you said " Jane his secretary said .

Mile rushes back home and after that he was Infront of the restaurant wearing his newest clothes and he did his hair.

What was he doing here , how did he get here ? he knows that he was not supposed to go ... He didn't want to see him again!. Then why is he doing that , does that mean he thinks there is some hope after all the shit that Apo did to him?!

Uhh !! Mile sighed before he steps to the restaurant "god ! This is stupid i really should go back" Mile turns his head back to the car that brought him until he glanced a glimpse of Apo.

His heart started beating fast but at the same time he felt angry because he recalled the night he saw Apo in another man's lap , and how that made him feel.

"Fuck he looks handsome" Mile said under his breath before he approached Apo .

Was he had to say that?

Apo was on his phone at the table waiting for him,
Mile get closer to him.

"Oh hi Mile, please have a seat"

Mile sat and there was the silence for a minute then he said
"Nice haircut"

"Ah, thanks Mile i like it that way , and you lost a lot of weight "

"Yeah, you know , just a new life style "

Then the silence again .

Mile wanted to say what was in his mind but he tried twice and hesitated. But thank god he did the third time.

"What do you want Apo " Mile finally said it
"Why did you show up now? Do you wanna ruin life again? What you did wasn't enough already, huh? Mile voice start to getting louder.

Apo's eyes widened after what Mile said and he wasn't wrong and Apo knows that, that he had hurt him enough.

"Please, Mile keep your voice down people are watching"

"What you said is totally right and I'm really sorry for it and i know saying sorry won't fix anything but please listen to me and don't interrupt me until i finish okay " Apo said with his eyes locked with Mile's ones.

Mile just nodded but his heart was about to jump out of his chest.

Apo starts" I'm so sorry for all the things that i said or did and as much as I'm saying sorry it's still not enough and it won't make up anything, and if you gonna ask me how did i know you're here its because i never stop watching you i wanted to do this along time ago i wanted to make peace with you but i hesitated to do that because i know that you don't wanna see my ugly face, so i waited til you calm down so we can talk like civilized people and we both mature enough to deal with that, and I'm here today to tell you that if you moved on that's good but if you think that there is a chance between us , I'm telling you that there isn't any I'm sorry again, I'm getting engaged to my boyfriend next Monday and this is gonna be our last meeting i wanted to say sorry and thank you for all the feeling and love that you gave me and i appreciated ,i really hope that you find your other half and be happy in life " Apo ended it with smile.

On the other hand Mile was shocked , suprised and numb after he heard that Apo is getting engaged?!! Fucking engaged?! To who?

"So you didn't love me then? " Mile said

"I tried, swear i really did ! But i couldn't " apo keep speaking.

Mile heard his heart broken again!! The bastard doesn't even look sorry even with all the"sorry " he said.

"You loved me so much and i can feel your love i still do , but the problem that I didn't , and i didn't wanted to get this far i wanted to ended the thing that was between us but I didn't have the chance and i didn't want to hurt you , you have a pure heart Mile "

"Cut this shit Apo ! Who is your beloved ? "

"I'm in love with James "

"Haha! The one you left me to be with him ? I'm happy for you !! (no he doesn't, he hates it).

Congratulations Apo and yes i moved on a long ago,"

"I did love you yes but forgetting you was easy so don't think of yourself that you mean anything thing to me anymore , enjoy your life . I only came here because i don't want you to show up in my life again , thanks for all the pain that you caused to me " Mile slapped the table furiously as he stood up for his chair and he took a deep breath and smile mockingly.

Then he walked to the exit leaving Apo at the table he couldn't say a word after what Mile said.

Mile tried to collect himself until he is home again and as soon as Mile open his house he crashed down to the floor he cried his heart out

"Why is this happening again? The pain won't stop? He was talking to himself and sobbing.
What have i done in my life to deserve this, am i that much unlovable ??"

"What's the point of living anymore?" Mile said staring at the kitchen.

Hi !
This is what i came up with! Sorry i wasn't able to write... But i tried for you guys
Thank you so much for each word you said it's really means a lot to me and i did write because i don't want to disappoint you .

Have a nice day:)
Love y'all ❤️