Invisible Strings * Ongoing*

32 - RIPPED

SHE FELT BETRYAED.

TOTALLY BETRAYED...BY HIM..

INDEED HER MOTHER WAS RIGHT....

THIS WAS WORSE THAN THE STAB IN THE BACK....

HOW COULD HE DO THIS? HOW COULD HE DO THIS?? TO HER? TO ARNAV?? TO THEM??

HER heart trembled and broke – for Arnav – in the moment hard as she realised what he must have gone through in the moment – on her accord and to think he'd just given her silence to come around a context herself?????And given the talk they'd anyway had prior – he probably thought it was best he just went with that...knowing it would be the only thing of her assuming he'd wanted a real time relationship more now – that would break Khushi enough to not have courage to seek him out ever on this...accord...

But - Dammmmmm.He'd never been with anyone..else...surely. Now Khushi knew...it in her gut. He'd never been on a date with anyone else...ever.....

He'd spent those years apart – chasing his dreams – aching everyday just like her to every inch of his soul just like she had been. She knew that now....and oh how that broke her...how that broke her...thinking of Arnav....

Now it all sinks in....it all sinks in...the pain..behind his writing Rabba Ve for her...

And now – just like that as her mother's telling her everything – she also felt all the dots in her head connect – on the nervy turmoil she'd spotted in Arnav every time in the present on accord of mentioning her father. Now it all just made clear cut sense. Now it all began to make so much sense. Now she had the answer to - Why? He'd always flinched everytime she'd mentioned her father...why he'd snapped that way in the green room saying he'd never take a penny of her fathers...why...he was jittery about his approval?what he thought? Why...he's been so nervous on this all along?Why..on the first day here...she'd sensed him being silence...in reaction about meeting her daddy when he'd mentioned it was wonderful meerting..her Mum.Why??? He was pretending to be all normal around him still – killing his own self respect – only out of his deep love for her....

Dammm.

Dammmmm.

Freaking * Freaking – Dammmmmmmmmmmm.

Now all the dots began connecting in her head bit by bit – the entire puzzle falling into a complete picture – as she sat there trembling in shock, and stunned betrayal.....her heart just breaking/ripping for herself...and Arnav...all over again...............

Minutes later – once – her mother's done speaking it all out – Khushi finally clutches onto her trembling betrayed heart as Ellie hugs her to her side kissing on her head and she asks her father crying profusely but whilst looking at her Mom – " you did..this to me?? Daddy? You did this to Arnav and me??? you did this to us??? I loved you with all my heart daddy...and yet...you....stabbed me in the back this way? stabbed me so bad??? stabbed my heart so bad?????you broke my trust...in the worst possible way and not only that... for years...after...for seven long years after...you saw me tremble in ache....you saw it all...you saw how much I was aching in my heart...in longing for Arnav never having it in me to move on emotionally...and yet you never said...anything???yet...you never told me the truth????how could you do this to me daddy????0h - How could you??? or perhaps...you never really loved me like your own....daddy..you just never really loved me like your own....,"and she buries herself in her mothers arms crying at that hard completely vulnerable and shaken and feeling betrayed to her very core – " how could he do this to me...Mum...how could he???he never...really loved me?then??did he??Mum... If he did...he wouldn't have...ever..had it in his heart to break my heart like this....butcher it rather...thank you mum for telling me the truth...thank you...and to think...I was blinded on this...for so long...so long....on both the truth plus the thought...that he actually loved me....as his own daughter...oh he never did..he never did...he just never did love me as his own......"