Ranting about everything

Chapter 1- Just being in a family

Apparently a black sheep is someone who feels left out by everyone.

I sometime wish I wasn't in a family.
I know that sounds really mean but they do my head in all the time.
They don't listen, don't understand when your angry and couldn't care less if you needed a breather from everything or wanted to be alone.

I don't get depressed, I don't cut myself or smoke.
I just get insanely angry, some people might think I have anger issues but the doctors say I don't (may not believe the, but they can't do anything to stop it if they don't think I have anger issues).

Let's start off with when a sibling does something. Say for instance they took something of yours without asking, I would get really angry at them and shout. My parents would say it was my fault and shout at me.
But if I took something of my sisters and didn't ask, I would get shouted at by all of them.

I know I don't have it as bad as some people but it sometimes feels like I do!
The one song that comes to mind in 'Boulevard of Broken Dreams' by green day I'll put the lyrics for those of you who don't know it.

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
Of what's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

That wasn't much of a rant but I feel better.
I want to say thank you to those who have took the time to read this.
If you relate to this chapter please say so I don't feel stupid for ranting about this.