Introspective

Intimacy Is Something I Didn't Know I Didn't Want

I'm in his room now. I'm getting ready for the action to happen. But I realized that I didn't want to do this. But I've already agreed to it. I can't just blow him off like that. I don't wanna be seen as another tease in his eyes. There's nothing I can do. There's no escape from this. I've already signed a deal with the devil. Who knows??? Maybe this won't be bad. Saying that, I know I'm sugarcoating my feelings. I love him so much but I'm not ready for this. He's coming up the stairs right now. I pray to god & hope this will be at least pleasant.