Dead Vibes

I saw a nightmare which seemed so real. This isn't something new but this time, it felt as I have gone through that situation and have lived every moment of pain. Didn't gave a second though about it when the water splashed across my face.

Today the world seems unusually dull and paranoid infront of my eyes. But still the loud noise of people made it feel like a little real. I was confused as to why so many people where waiting outside my dull room. But still as usual didn't gave a damn to the world about my existence and took a couple of shots of vodka to forget the misery of life .

I tried to see the same gray wall behind me as usual . Nothing special as usual just some dirt spots but this time I noticed some  dark red spots splashed across the corner. This room gives me a dead vibe as my life as always but today it lacked some heartbeats . I guess it just stopped.

I again tried to steal some glances of a body lying on the wooden  floor with a bullet in one hand. Some people are just clicking some photos of mine . I just heard someone whispering it's a suicide but I know its not just a suicide. Probably I think it's just a girl who have been strong  and have put a mask of a happy face infront of the society for a very long time but couldn't keep it anymore so she decided to end it by herself rather than being killed little by little everyday by this cruel life.

I still think what they will see in those pics. A pretty dead face or a soul which lacked some life and gave upon itself a long time ago.

Perhaps I think my soul is stuck between this gray wall which lacks empathy, love and is forever stuck in the darkness between dusk and dawn . I guess my soul deserves a warm sunray across my heart atleast in my next life .