After losing her grandmother, Carolyn is hurt and everything from her past seems to come to hunt her present, slowly almost completely changing her. Seeing his daughter's state, Faris Allard decides to send her to St Jordan High, a boarding school f...
If I create a distance between us then at least when one of us goes, it won't be that hard to let go and move on.
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"I said I'm fine."
So I never got any sleep because one, I went ice hunting in the school kitchen and two, as soon as i got to my room, I received a call from my dad.
"But you still need to go for your appointments, it was the condition for you getting a job holiday at that book store."
"But dad, you can't force me to talk to Sandy anymore, I already started writing that blog like she said." I say, a little annoyed at the fact that from the time I picked up, he's just been talking about Sandy (aka the therapist) the whole time.
"Cass...." He goes silent after realizing what he was about to say.
A memory of my mom calling Cassie flashes through my mind, making my mood worse. "I have to get going now."
"Joy, I'm..." The pain in his voice evident.
"I don't want to talk to you right now, can I call you back later?" I say, cutting him off.
"Why do you keep trying to avoid me?" He asks, sounding very furious. I hear a loud thump meaning he probably hit something like he does everytime he gets angry. "You don't answer my calls and when you do, you are either rude or you act distant."
"You created this distance between us. The distance we have had since my childhood. Since mom's deaths and when blaze left ." I say, using every ounce of me to try and stay calm.
"No. You are creating the distance and pushing everyone away. You have changed so much during the past few months. Your cousin told me that this would happen that's why I sent you there, to help distract you but now you are disrespecting teachers, sneaking out of the hostel at night and you are bullying your roommates. Joy, you weren't raised like this." And then his he falls silent, seemingly fed up with my behaviour.
I take a moment to think about my response carefully, knowing full well that it will determine how and when this conversation ends.
"I'm sorry." I make slight pause before sadly saying. "But this is who I am now."
I look out my window and see that a storm is coming and storms here get pretty ugly. My dad, sounding quiet defeated says a quick goodbye and hangs up.
"I'm sorry. I promise that once I create a distance between us, you will never feel this way again just because of me because you will stop caring about me soon enough."
I take my water bottle, They Both Die at the End a novel by Adam Silvera that I was planning on reading tomorrow, my reading glasses, a warm jersey and all those into a backpack. I pick up the ice packet I had placed on the table earlier and put it on my nose for a while. Hopefully it isn't broken or fractured because I really don't want to see another doctor for a while.
I yawn because of the lack of sleep, as I lazily walk towards the school hall.
As I enter the school hall which is a mandatory area to be in during storms since it's the safest during this kinds of situations, I see other students sitting in huge groups some even standing, as they socialize. I find myself a cozy warm corner, fully prepared to engross myself in the book I brought with me. But I feel like the effects of the sleep deprivation slowly start kicking in again, as I find myself opening my eyes to a not so very surprising yet amusing sight.
Well this is gonna be a long night.
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