𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒

FIVE

This chapter will mention of blood, mention of throwing up, recovering from an ed, anxiety, BPD episodes, social anxiety, OCD episodes, and alcoholism

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𝐅𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐱 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐃𝐮𝐛𝐨𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐤𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐂𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐛 𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐡. He wanted to go and hug the boy to try and get him to stop pacing but he didn't. He didn't even say anything to the blonde, he simply just sat down and stared at each checkered tile on the kitchen wall. Caleb took notice of the dazed state the boy was in and instantly felt terrible. He had been the reason the boy was uncomfortable in cousins. He was the one who ruined Felix's summer, again. In an attempt to make up for it, Caleb stopped pacing and walked over to Felix. He stopped in front of the boy before he started speaking.

"Hey Felix, what should I have for breakfast? I was thinking about having an egg with bacon since it had protein but then I also haven't had oatmeal in a while. I also was thinking about having a bowl of cereal but decided against that since it would have too much sugar for this early in the morning," Caleb ranted as he started thinking of new things to have for his breakfast, something he doesn't have often.

"I was also thinking of using those croissants we bought and making everyone breakfast sandwiches. Or even breakfast sliders but no one else is up yet and I was planning on going for a run before my shift and needed to eat something beforehand so I don't pass out mid-run you know," Caleb smiled slightly as he rambled on, and on and on, only stopping when he needed to catch his breath

"I think I'll make breakfast croissants and then when everyone is up, they can have one if they would like. Should I use bacon? Or what about ham or sausage? I'll make multiple vegan versions as well with the vegan croissants for Cora and Hazel, and anyone else who may want them. Um I think I'll use the apples we have in the fridge and make hot cinnamon apples for a snack later as well as make freshly squeezed apple juice and orange juice," Caleb added before looking up at Felix, who had paid absolutely no attention to the boy and could care less about what he was talking about

"Lix? Are you listening?" Caleb asked, a lump forming in his throat as he spoke

"Hmm? Yeah cool," Felix frowned as he pushed himself up from the chair and walked away from the kitchen, wanting to go back upstairs and wrap himself in his blanket

Caleb's heart clenched as he felt nauseated at the thought of food. Felix had always cared about Caleb when it came to him talking about good and now he won't even acknowledge him when he's talking about it. Caleb felt bile rise in his throat as he rushed upstairs and into the bathroom, he shared with Fran. The door slammed shut so loud he could hear Frans footsteps seconds later, his sister knowing something was wrong by the quick slamming. Caleb waited for the girl to knock but when she never did, he knew he was okay to finally let it out. Tears fell down his cheeks as he grew tired of living the way he did. He was sick of constantly upsetting those around him. Caleb felt more bile rise as he leaned his head into the toilet and spent almost 30 minutes throwing up.