Fuck!
Freddie looks startled and a little embarrassed. The woman he's with—however—simply smiles before walking off. I don't know what to do or say. Is Freddie seeing someone else? We never discussed where we lie with regards to other people and therefore I can't exactly be angry with him. But how can he sleep with me and have another woman around the same day?
"You wanna come in?" he asks, sounding nervous.
I nod, because more than anything I desire an explanation. Still, I don't utter a single word. I'm in shock. I thought Freddie was one of the good ones. I never expected him to do this. I never expected it to hurt this much.
"Is she your friend?" I ask, sounding uncertain.
He shakes his head, then—eyes widening—reaches for my hand and covers it with his own.
"Ana—baby—no!"
I swallow hard, nails digging into the cake tin I'm still stupidly holding. Here I am, baking cookies for the man I had sex with last night while he's inviting other women into his home.
"She's not—that's not—"
"It's okay," I offer. "We're not dating. You're allowed to see other women."
He takes a step back, seemingly shocked. "Is it?"
"Is it what?" I ask, heating up with anger.
"Is it okay if I see other women?"
I shrug.
"Because if I see other women, you can see other men and I don't know if I'm okay with that."
I throw my hands up in frustration, seconds away from throwing the cookies at his head. "How are you turning this around on me right now? You're the one I just caught with another woman."
"Ana—I'm not—"
"And you don't get to tell me what I can and cannot do, Freddie! If I want to see other men, I will!"
I don't even know why I say that other than to prove a point. I have no desire to spend time with any other man who isn't Freddie. I'm simply hurt and embarrassed and this is the only way I know how to save face.
"You want to sleep with other men?" he asks, face contorting.
I shrug. "Maybe?"
He stares at me, hurt. "Am I not enough?"
"Well, clearly I'm not!" I yell, pointing towards his door.
There's suddenly a knock, as though summoned by me gesturing towards it.
"It's only me," comes Nic's chirpy voice, interrupting our argument.
She walks into the living room, and I immediately pull back.
"Are you coming to the park too, Ana?"
I smile at her bright face and shake my head. "I can't. I'm a little busy today."
She returns my smile before facing her brother. "So, I'm stuck with you?"
I don't tell her how lucky she is to be stuck with him. I simply throw out a half arsed goodbye and don't bother looking at him before I leave.
I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid.
I crack open the tin and shove a lemon cookie into my mouth, unashamed of my desperation. It tastes delicious and my petty mind is glad Freddie hasn't had any. I eat another two before I grab my phone and make a call to Helen. Despite being forty years older than me and nan's BFF, I see Helen as an ally. A friend. And she gives the best fucking advice.
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The Neighbour
RomanceWhen Ana confronts her new neighbour after being kept up all night by his sex noises, she's mortified to discover he's none other than Freddie-the police officer who arrested her abusive ex-boyfriend last month. The pair interact only when necessar...
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