What if... An Anidita Scrap Tales

SS: A Forever Goodbye? (P-4)

He creased his eyebrows and said in a cold tone "Kya jawaab chahti ho tum? Ha? Kya janna chahti ho tum?" He slightly bent towards her. Her breath got heavy and her gazes were casted down but still stood steadily.

"TOH SUNO! KAAN KHOLKAR SUNO! HAA MAINE APNE AAPKO BADAL DIYA HAI! AB YAHI HAI TUMHARE PATI BABU KA ROOP. AUR TUMHE..." he bent more towards her and said a stern tone "tumhe bhi ab banke rehna hoga meri aadarsh patni. Aur ek aadarsh patni, apne Pati se sawaal ya tark nahi karti."

She was standing silently her eyes pooled with unshed tears unable to utter a word "Kya hua Bondita? Woh tum hi toh thi jisse ek aadarsh patni banne ka bhoot sawaar tha" he mocked her while walking around her. Toh ye aadarsh patni aaj itne sawaal kaise kar rahi hai Bondita?" She looked at him shockingly.

"Tumhare Kaka sasurji ne, ya wo pados ki aurte aur tumhare saheliyon ne tumhe sikhaya nahi ye sab?"

"Sikhaya tha!" She finally spoke up raising her voice "Par maine toh wahi seekha, jo aapne sikhaaya Pati Babu. Aur aapne ye sikhaaya tha ki agar kuch galat ho, toh uske khilaaf awaaz uthana chahiye. Tark karo. Tark se fark mitaao. Yahi sikhaaya tha na aapne?"

A sad smile appeared on his face as he said "Haa Bondita, sikhaaya tha. PAR MERI SEEKHO KO DAAV PE RAKHKAR KYA CHUNA TUMNE? Bondita ne chuna, ek Aadarsh Patni banna. SIRF-EK-AADASH-PATNI" Bondita looked down as the realization gradually started hitting her.

He continued his yelling "PADHAI LIKHAI DAAV PE LAGAKAR, TUMNE CHUNA AADARSH PATNI BANNE KA RAAH." She tightly shutted her eyes as she knew there was more to come .

"VIDYALAY NAHI JAANA THA BONDITA KO! AUR VIDYALAY NAA JAAKAR, SINDOOR KHAREEDNE THE. CHAMATKAARI SINDOOR." She remembered how she used to sneak out of her school to buy those stuffs.

Not only that, in order to focus on being a perfect wife, she didn't realize that she had been bunking the school and ignoring her studies.

"Humara naam saath laana tha. Ussey apne haatho mein gadwaya. Kodne ka dard saha Bondita ne..." As he said this, she looked at her tattooed arm where she had inked their names together.

"Upvaas karna, vrath rakhna, khaali pet rehna, aur khaali pet uss unchi Shiv ji ke mandir jaana. Ye sab kiya Bondita ne taaki humaara rishta bhi baaki pati patniyo jaisa ho, toh bann gaya Bondita." She looked at him as he said the last statement.

"Humara rishta bhi baaki Pati Patniyo jaisa ho gaya hai. Tumhe toh khush hona chahiye. Iss baat se. Jhoomo naacho gaao Bondita, kyuki ab main bhi ban chuka hu baaki patiyo ki tarah. Aur Patiyon ko ye manzoor nahi hota ki unki patni unse zyaada baaki kaamo ko ahmeeyad de. Padhai bhi nahi." She looked at him in disbelief. Is he the same person who used to say nothing is important for her than studies?

"Main Bondita ko heera banana chahta tha. Par Bondita ko bas ek pathhar bane rehna tha. Bann gayi meri Bondita, khaas se aam Bondita." Her eyes were pleading this not to be true "Pati Ba..."

"Ek baat kaan kholke sunn lo Bondita, tumhara school jaana, Homework karna, padhai karna, tumhare Barrister banne ka sapna, inn sab se mujhe ab koi matlab nahi hai. Tumhe jo karna hai toh tum kar sakti ho, par..." she found a new ray of hope until he said "tumhare mere prati jo kartavya hai, jo Patni dharam hai, pati ki seva, ussey badhkar kuch nahi."

He stood straight in front of her "Ab marzi tumhari hai Bondita, inn sab ke baad agar tumhe school jaane ka waqt mile toh jaao. Waise bhi shulk toh main ab bhi bhar raha hu tumhare school ka." Saying this he went past her towards the book shelf. That hurted her. He never brought the topic that he was the one who pays her fees. She felt so helpless and dependent at this moment.

She wished she could express her pain and agony to someone. But the irony is,  the same someone, with whom she shared everything is giving this pain.