Raghav:- wo esha mere ko like karta tha ....lekin mere ko usme koi interest nahi tha ....
Mera life ka sirf do aim tha ek achha career banana aur dusra apna Amma ka bharosa phir se kamana ...
Isiliye mai aur kisi bhi baat me involve ho k khud ko apna aim se bhatkana nahi chahta tha....
Ye pyar vyar.. girlfriend boyfriend ka chakkar me mere ko nahi padna tha...
Lekin wo esha mera peeche hi pad gaya tha....mai jaha jata waha wo mere ko stalk karta... Kabhi library me....kabhi jaha mai kaam karta waha aa jata ... Yaha tak k wo boys hostel me bhi aa jaya karta tha mera peeche peeche... But mai hmesa uska en harkato ko ignore kiya karta tha... Baki k ladke mere ko bola karte the ki ladki samne se line de rahi h to tu kyu peeche hat raha h...mere ko relationship me involve hone ka advice diya karta tha per mai unlogo ko bol deta tha k mere ko ye sab faltoo cheejo me nahi padne ka h....
Ek din wo esha mere ko bola k usko apna assignment me help chahiye mera se....wo mere ko bhut request kiya ...maine socha k wo genuinely mera help chahta h to isiliye mai usko guide karne ka liye ready ho gaya...
Per mai jabhi bhi usko kuch smjhta ...kaam se related uska dhyan mera baato pe nahi balki mera pe hota wo jaanboojh k mera ko galat tarika se touch karne ka kosis karta per mai usko turant wo sab karne se mana karta lekin wo apna nautanki chalu rakha ...kabhi wo mera liye expensive gifts le aya karta tha ye soch k ki mai wo sab se impress ho jayega aur usko like karne lagega.. to kabhi wo khud ko hurt kiya karta tha ye dekhane ka liye k wo mere ko bhut pyar karta h....per mai kabhi bhi usko aisa indication nahi diya k mai usme interested h...mai hmesa usko saaf saaf uska muh pe bola k mera se dur rahe wo...aur kuch din tak uska help karne ka bad mai usse bat karna band kar diya...mera liya sir dard ban gaya tha wo esha....
Ek din usne college ka cultural hall me sab students ka samane mere ko propose kiya ....
Per mai tabhi bhi uska proposal ki politely reject kar diya ....uska baad usne apna haath ka nas kaat liya....ekdum psycho tha wo esha..
Uska es harkat ka wajah se mere ko uspe bahut gussa aya kyuki ab uska harkat mera tolerance level se bahar ja chuka tha...usko laga tha k uska es harkat se mai usse impress ho jayega usko pyar karne lagega. ..arey pyar kya koi aisa forcefully karwaya jata h...
Us din ka bad jab esha phir se mera pas apna pyar ka nautanki karne ko aya to mai usko gussa me sabke samane ek thappad mar diya.....
Mera ko to nahi laga tha k mai kuch galat kiya....arey agar koi mjhe itna pareshan kar raha h to mai kaiko bardasht kare....
Agar abhi koi ladka kisi ladki ko aisa pareshan karta to wo ladki to us ladke ko pata nahi kitna maar khilwa chuki hoti...
Maine to bas ek thappad hi mara tha ....ye soch k ki sayad ab us esha ko akkal ayega aur wo mera peecha chhor dega .
Aur sach me aisa hi hua wo esha usdin ka bada se mera peecha chhor diya ...mai bhi relax ho gaya aur apna kaam pe dhyan dene lag gaya....dekhte dekhte...final semester k exam ho gaye ...maine jis company me 1mahine ka intership kiya tha waha se hi mere ko job ka offer bhi mil gaya tha ...waha pe sab intership ka time mera kaam se bhut impress hua tha aur tabhi wo company se mere ko job offer bhi mil gaya ek achha salary package pe...aur do hafto bad mere ko waha join karne ka tha...mai bhut khush tha finally mai apna dream ko pura karne ka ek step aur aage badh gaya tha....
MBA k final results bhi aa gaye the bas do teen din me hostel khali kar k jaana tha sabko.....mere ko apna ek bright future dikh raha tha...aur mai socha tha k job join karne ka bad mai Amma ka pas dubara jayega unko ye khushi dega .....
Lekin mai nahi janta tha k mera ye khushi sirf kuch hi din ka h ...aur bhut jald ye khushi mera se cheenne wala h....
College me us din mera batch ka farewell party chal raha tha....mai pehli bar itne saalo bad koi function khul k enjoy kar raha tha ...
Us din esha phir se bhut mahino bad mera paas aya aur mera se apna behaviour ka liye maafi manga... Mere ko laga k aaj last day h mera college me mai kisi ko hurt nahi karega isiliye mai usko maaf kar diya.... per mere ko nahi pata tha k wo esha aage mera sath kya karne wala h...
Raat bhar party chala ...hum sab log khoob enjoy kiya... Aakash apna ek friend ka ghar ko chala gaya...aur hostel me kaafi log room khali kar k ja chuka tha.....
Us raat mai apna room me akela hi tha.......achanak se esha waha aa gaya....
Mere ko kuch smjh aata esse pehle koi mera sir pe kisi cheej se maar diya aur mai wahin behosh ho gaya....
Thodi der bad jab mere ko hosh aaya to mai dekhta h ki ....esha room ka ek kone me baitha hua tha..uska kapda fata hua tha...uska hath pair me aur sir me chot laga tha ....aur wo ro raha tha..mere ko kuch smjh nahi aya aur mai jaisa hi uska paas gaya uska help karne ko wo jor jor se chillane lag gaya...k mere ko chhor do...mere sath aisa mat karo...
Mai kuch smjh pata esse pehle mera room k bahar kuch log aa k jor jor se darwaja peetne lag gaya jab mai darwaja khola to wo esha sabko bola k mai uska sath rape kiya h..
Sab log esha ka halat dekh k uska baat ka vishwas kiya...aur mere ko galat smjha ..mai bhut kosis kiya apna baat smjhane ka per koi nahi smjha...
Do saal me maine jo apna image banaya tha wo sab ek second me tabah ho gaya us esha ka wajah se...mera character pe sab question karne lag gaya....her koi mere ko shaq ka nazaro se dekhne lag gaya....
Wo esha mere ko bola k agar mai chahta h ki sab log phir se mere ko sahi smjhe to mai uska pyar ko accept kar le....
Tab mere ko realise hua k wo esha to apna rejection ko aaj tak bhula hi nahi paya h ....wo to bas kuch mahino se natak kar raha tha ..lekin maine uska ghatiya baat nahi mana ...mai socha k jab mai kuch galat nahi kiya h to mai galat ka aage kaiko jhukhe..
Wo mere ko bola k wo police me mera khilaf complaint kar dega mai tabhi bhi nahi darra aur bola k jo karna h wo kar le ...
Uska bad pata nahi kaha se wo esha ko mera ghar ka baare me pata chal gaya aur wo mera Amma aur behen ka yaha apna family ko leke chala gaya aur waha ja k ye bola k mai uska sath rape kiya h ...aur usne ek video bhi dikhaya jisme k mai esha k sath us raat tha ..aur mai usko pakda hua tha ...us video ko dekhne se yahi lag raha tha k mai sach me uska sath galat kar raha h ...wo to yaha tak k ye bhi jhuth bol diya k mai wo video bana k usko blackmail kar raha h k agar wo police me mera complaint kiya to mai uska ye video viral kar dega ...aur jisse k esha ka badnaami hoyega....
Mai Amma aur kirti ko bola k mai aisa kuch nahi kiya h wo esha jhuth bol raha h...per ek bar phir se mera amma mera baat ka yakeen nahi kiya...balki dusro ka bat ko sach maana...
Ek bar phir se mere ko sabka saamne beizzat kiya gaya....
Wo esha ka family wala bhut powerful tha wo mera gharwalo ko bhi dhamkaya ...aur uska sath sath mere ko jis company me job mila tha waha ja k ye bol diya k mere ko kaam na de ...chuki wo company ka malik esha ka father ka dost tha isiliye wo unka baat maan gaya...
Aur phir mere ko usdin company ka office se ph aya aur pata chala k wo log mera job offer ko cancel kar diya....
24 hours me sab kuch ekdum se badal gaya....mera sara sapna phir se tut gaya ....Amma ko manne ka ummeed phir se kho gaya....
Mai itna helpless ho gaya tha k mera ko kuch smjh hi nahi aa raha tha ...college ka campus me wapas gaya to sab mera baare me baatein kar raha tha ...mera pe taunt maar raha tha...mjhe un logo ka nazaro me khud ka liye sirf nafrat dikhayi de raha tha...khud se ghinn aa raha tha mere ko.....
Mai samjh nahi pa raha tha k mai apna dosto ko kaise face karega ....kyuki jab mera Amma hi mera yakeen nahi kiya to mai phir apna dosto se kya ummeed rakhta.... Aur waisa bhi saare saboot mera khilaf the...koi bhi meri baat ka yakeen nahi karta ...
Mai kisi tarah se apna hostel ka room me gaya...waha ja k apna sab saman pack kiya ek bag me...aur chupke se sabka nazaro se bachte huye mai waha se nikal pada.....ab to mera sath akka bhi nahi tha k mai unka pas ja sakta tha....
Aur usse bhi jyada afsos mere ko es bat ka tha k mai unka samne ab kya muh leke jayega...
Ek bar phir se mai zindagi k us mud pe khada tha jaha se mere ko kuch smjh nahi aa raha tha ki mai kaun sa rasta choose kare....
Mai bina kuch soche smjhe railway station chala gaya aur samane jo train khadi thi platform pe uspe ja k baith gaya.....mere ko ye tak nahi pata tha k wo train kaha ja rahi h...us wakt mai sirf Hyderabad se ...apne dosto se..apne ghar aur apni purani zindagi se kahin dur Jana chahta tha ...to mai ek aimless insan ka tarah bas nikal pada....
To be continued.....
