◇ 𝔗𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔦 𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔰𝔥𝔬𝔱𝔰 ◇

𝙽𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜

Weeks passed, we had this presentation we both worked together for, we got good feedback and a good grade.
Things couldn't have gone better with that class to be honest.

Zhongli and I did spend more time together after that.
We did had that sleepover together.
We cuddled while watching a movie together, more like I just wrapped an arm around him and he leaned into the touch and wrapped his arm around my waist.
It was lovely.

We even kissed. And the first time those heavenly lips touched mine I was sure, I'd get addicted to them.
They were soft and plump. And they swelled whenever we kissed.
I was in heaven and never felt so in love like I did right now.
Everything just felt so right and natural like it belonged that way.

However a few weeks after some dates and make out sessions, his whole mood changed.
He randomly started to avoid me.
And when I had the chance to talk to him he said he was busy and needed to go.
He even dropped out of the class where we sat together saying it wasn't a necessary class for him to graduate.
Everything just felt so weird.

I questioned myself sometimes, if I did something wrong but I couldn't think of anything.
It was just frustrating.
Like all he did was putting on an act and now he let it fall down.
It just hurts.

As if the spark I felt between him and me just disappeared.
Like it was never there but imagined.

The overthinking grew from week to week.
Especially when I saw him around other's, genuinely laughing, like it wasn't an act of his.
Whenever he saw me he avoided me. Sometimes he even got out of the rooms or excused himself that he had something important going on.

It was tiring and I didn't know what to do except to wait and hope things will change again.
Perhaps I need to change?
Maybe he'll like me again.
Maybe things between us will change again.
Maybe?!?!!...

I sighed.
Things won't change for sure. Especially when he's just so distant.
I can't even approach him without him saying he's busy or being around someone else.

Maybe I'm just overreacting.
Maybe he doesn't do that on purpose. Maybe he's just really busy.
Maybe...

Weeks passed and they passed so slow, it felt like I was eaten alive.
Today tho, I decided to confront Zhongli, confront him for what he did. For how I felt and how I had feelings for him.
How I thought that the thing between us was something good, something special we both obvious enjoyed.
I'll ask him why he's been avoiding me.
I'll just tell him how I really felt, hoping he would listen.
Maybe he'll say sorry?
Maybe he'll ignore me like always, I don't know...
I'm scared. I really am. I never really confessed to anyone, because I never felt this way before, only with him..
He made me feel things I didn't think I was capable to feel.

I went into the schools building, heading to my locker to get a few things before class.
When I opened my locker.
There was a note slipping out.

I picked it up and unfolded it.

"I'm sorry, things between ended so abruptly like this. I should've told you I didn't quite felt the same even tho my actions didn't speak for it.
If only people can choose the one they'll love, I would've picked you.

Never truly yours, Zhongli"

I felt how my cheeks became hotter, wet streaks poured over them.
I didn't notice how tears welled up until now.
Why...
I don't understand, why did he even flirted back? Why did he acted the way he did when he never felt the same?
Was he trying to love me?...
Or he didn't want to hurt my feelings.
I felt betrayed.
Dumb even. I closed my locker, I sighed and wiped my face with my sleeve.
I tried to calm my breathing while clutching the paper onto my chest.

Love is like a double edged sword, no matter which side you collide with, blood will always be shed.

Hope you guys enjoyed it. :)
Maybe when I feel like posting again, I could post some fluff.. idk yet.
Also did you guys already explored sumeru?
I haven't played genshin in a while, so I didn't. :)!!
Until next time
Also I've been reading lots of Soukoku ffs on ao3 so I guess I kinda got inspired.