Invisible Strings * Ongoing*

12. Gravity...

Arnav now holds her by the other arm too gently as he gets whats this about and he whispers, his eyes falling on her gorgeous lips on their own accord – " scream at me...dammit...scream your lungs out at me, if you have too...dammit...but answer me...on the context of Samarth...now...right damm now..."

And that obviously riles Khushi up now for she was surprised over how much she was enjoying the feel of his eyes on her lips at the moment and so to spite him back she says now – " why would I scream my lungs at you dammit???"

Arnav narrows his eyes at her as he says – " because, you'r still freaking angry at me...still...Khushi...deep within your subconscious mind, you still pretty much are...logically your conscious mind has processed it's reasoning...but...has your subconscious mind...found its release on the stored up anger in there? for me??Nah. I don't think so...which is why, I want you to just vent it out...."

Hearing that from Arnav just freaking hits Khushi like a massive blow. It wasn't until he voiced these words, that it hit base deep within. Perhaps, he was right? But she was in no mood to admit that to him straight away and so she says now taking a step closer to him, loving the way it was making him almost break into a sweat – " you wish?? You freaking wish you have some sort off a storage space? In my subconscious? Nah,you don't! you most surely, don't...dammit...like who are we to each other in the present today?anyway??????? haan? yeah, we got history, that's like hanging in the air....but...that's history...all thanks to you...history...that's gone...dammit...seven years long gone....,"and just as she spots his eyes pop up with so much emotion at that she suddenly feels like she cannot stand there anymore and so she says beginning to turn around – "dammit you...I am leaving...,"but she is stopped by the hold of his hand on her wrist suddently at that as he whispers all intensely – "no.... don't go...dammit......please?? just don't go..."

That tone of his gets the better of her in the moment, for there was so much depth of emotion in it and so she pauses in her spot, before she is instantly turned around by him by the hold on her arm to make her look at him as he asks his emotional gaze now searching hers both his arms stationed on her arms again – " really? Khushi??? is it?? gone?? Our history??Seven years long gone???? Tell me,why doesn't it feel that way , though???? you ask me, who are we to each other in the present today??? I got a answer from my end ready....its an easy one - for me...you have always been...what you freaking dammit...were...back then....my own freaking personal sense of gravity....that freaking holds the very essence off my existence...get it now??????"

That startles the hell out of Khushi's mind obviously leading to her mask on the eyes get off all of sudden for a second, giving Arnav the exact sneak – peek he needed as he hears her ask in a stunned whispers – " whattttttttttttttttttttttt??????"

And Arnav can only answer to that on his impulse, his eyes tearing up on him with haunting memories – " yes, you heard me right...godaamit....you were, you still are and always will be - my freaking gravity....Khushi....dammit.....do you have any idea what I'v been through...in all these years?? Do you have any idea...how freaking soul wrenching it was...for me to freaking even stay away from you?????????????????for all these years???? no you freaking don't know...you freaking just don't know...anything.......dammit....."

That startles the hell out of Khushi's mind obviously, and it was the display of that soul wrenching emotion on Arnav's face right now that blew her mind, heart and soul away. She knew he was stating the truth – right now. His aching eyes, the splash of angst all over his face – his trembling with emotion eyes – that were on the verge of tearing up – freaking hit base deep within and she ends up asking on reflex now suddenly holding him by the collar , her own eyes tearing up– " stop...you....stop...messing with my head dammit...Arnav....what are you saying? Why are you saying? This? You were the one...who wanted out...you shut me out...you stayed away for all these years...dammit....and now you come here...and say all this to me...its hitting me way too hard...you tell me dammit....just what is it that you really want from me now?????????? how do you want me to freaking react to all of this?????? What am I to presume off all of this???????? Why would you say – it was soul wrenching for you to even stay away from me??? when it was freaking your choice, in the first place????????,"and she pulls on the lapel of his jacket again – " answer me dammit...you freaking answer me now...just what the hell do you want from me????????"