Idk what the fuck I'm doing, I feel like such a loser right now- and I don't know why.
I'm scared that I might get embarrassed or humiliated at school on Tuesday, even if I study harder- I'm still dumb, I'll forget all the lessons that I've studied. Why do I feel so unlucky right now? I'm so down like really, but I think this will pass..
It really doesn't matter anymore, its like preventing something to happen that is inevitable. Everything is just so heavy to think over and over and over. I feel like my head is getting bigger from all the things i think about and i can't stop it nor i can do anything about it.
I need a coffee, i still don't want to sleep and i'm not sleepy- i just feel like sleepy but I'm not, okay? i'm really really fine. I just need a distraction from everything- and great, I'm isolating myself again from my friends, i kinda feel like i want to deactivate my social media's but I can't 'cuz I need those for my academics.
Lately, I've been thinking if I could ask my Adviser about our Schools' Guidance Councilor and perhaps, I could get a referral.. I want coffee, I need coffee. I'll just finish watching Sex Education and do my homework's after.
