Forever is not promised

~24~

It's a week later and tbh I haven't been doing well. My depression has been taking over but I haven't told anyone. I mean at least my song is coming out today. I didn't really want to do a big premiere for musing so I just did it alone while Landon was in New York.

Ahhh finally,

(Make your own comments)

Josh called Me.

Josh: I'm so proud of you Ella.
Me: Thanks josh. Finally someone actually cares.
Josh; Ella, u alr?
Me: Yh. I suppose so.
Josh: Don't lie to me. Tell me what's bothering you?
Me: Trust me it's nothing.
Josh: If anything is bothering you just tell me. I'm always here.
Me: thank you . I'll call u in abit.
Josh: Okay bye.
Me: Bye.

I tried calling Landon so many times but he didn't answer any of my call. I guess that was great.

Next morning:

Sorry babe. I was busy
But congrats. I luv you 😘
7:07

Mhm thanks Landon.
🥰
7:09

This wasn't like him.

1 week later:

I was performing on stage today. Landon hasn't been calling me or texting me. I was backstage and I only had 10 minutes until I had to go on .

Nailea: You got this Ella.
Me: I suppose so.
(Listen to the song now)

I kept looking out to see if he was here.

Nailea: Ella. Don't stress about him. Just go and  kill it.

I hugged her before going on stage.

(Where you've gotten through the song)

I saw him in the crowd. I looked at him as I was singing. I was so upset and mad.

After the show:

He came backstage. I ran to my dressing room as I was crying. Someone had grabbed me by the arm.

?: I'm so sorry Ella.

I turned around.

Landon: I was so busy . I really am sorry.
Me: No Landon! not even a message saying you were alright. Just give me some space.

I slammed my dressing room door.

I sat there until someone knocked on my door.

It was josh.

Josh: I heard you would probably be in here.
Me: Yeah
*I said while wiping my tears away*
Josh: How come your promise ring is not on your finger.
Me: It's nothing.
Josh: No not this time. What happened?
*I told josh what happened*
Josh: Dw about it. You'll make up with him.
Me: Idk  josh.

Next day:

* I slept at Nailea's house*

The same day Pap picture:

Ella has just been seen without Landon's promise ring.

(Imagine it's the morning)

Why did they have to interfere with everything?

Landon called me.

Me: Yh?
Landon: I just saw the paparazzi picture. Where's the promise ring?
Me: With me Landon. I'm just not wearing it.
Landon: Ella, whatever happened wasn't that serious. Anyway I'll be home.

He ended the call. I was the reason why everyone was getting mad. Why didn't I realise this earlier. I couldn't bare to live anymore.

Later:

Landon's POV:

I was lying down on the couch when I got a call from Nai. She was crying really bad.

Nailea: LANDON. C..C. OME TO T... HE HO...
Landon: Nai calm down. What happened?
Nai: Ellas in the hospital! She's in a bad place right now.

I quickly got up and went to the car. I was speeding on my car.I reached to the hospital with tears in my eyes.

I went to the waiting room where nai was.

Landon: What happened?
Nai: Apparently she tried to commit.
Landon: Why?
Nai: We don't know yet. She's just gained conscious.
Doctor: Is there a landon barker here.
Landon: Yeah that's me.
Doctor: Ellas calling you .

My pov:

I just gained conscious and I told the doctor to call Landon In. I didn't know if he was here.

Landon had came in:

Landon: Babe,
Me: Mhm *I said struggling*
Landon; Im so sorry *
Me: Don't apologise. It's my fault.
Landon: Ot isn't tho. I shouldn't have left without you
Me: It's fine.
I took his hand and put the ring on his palm.
Me: Take it. I'll put it on when I'm out of here.

Doctor: Landon you have to go now.
Landon: can I have 2 more minutes please.
Doctor: Sorry no.

1 week later;
I was at home ready and healthy again.

Landon: I bought you your normal order from Starbucks.
Me: Thanks babe.
Landon: Your welcome.