TRIGGER WARNING
After school I walked with Derek to his house.
He nodded as he opened the door, allowing me to walk in first. I smiled at his polite behavior. "Thank you"
We walked further into his house until a woman walked into us, "Oh hi honey, who's this?" she smiled brightly.
He wrote something down in his notebook;
Mom, this is Meredith, new kid
"Oh hey, Meredith. Nice to meet you" his mother said, pulling me into a hug.
"Nice to meet you too ma'am" I said polite.
"Darling, you can go upstairs, I'll bring some snacks and drinks" she said kindly.
We walked upstairs and got in his room, the walls were black and white, the covers of his bed were dark blue, there was a desk, a closet, a tv and a guitar.
"Nice room" I smiled, he nodded with a light smile.
"You know.." I said, sitting down next to him on the bed, "One day, I'm gonna make you talk"
He looked up at me with sad eyes and he shook his head,
You'll probably leave like everyone did, he wrote
"I'll be around.. I want to hear your voice"
He shrugged his shoulders and then his mom came in with sandwiches and drinks, "Here sweetheart," she said to me as she handed me the plate.
Derek smiled as a thanks and then we started a movie.
During the movie, I rested my head on Derek's shoulder and he rested his head on mine. I liked him, not as lovers but just as friends.
When the movie ended, we sat up on the bed. "So I'm gonna head home, I guess" I smiled
He nodded and wrote something down:
This went surprisingly good. This was nice. It was the first time I brought someone home other than Callie
"Callie?" I asked
He started writing a long text:
Yeah, Callie. We've been friends since first year of high school. She was there when I stopped talking and she's still here now and I'm grateful for her. She also knows everything, seriously everything about me and yeah
"Oh" I smiled, "Well I'm glad she's been there for you the whole time"
me too, he wrote.
I smiled and kissed his forehead, "I'm going now" I said
He nodded and we walked downstairs, just as I wanted to say goodbye to his mother, - "Meredith, honey, do you want to stay over for dinner?" she asked
I nodded, "well yeah, I mean, if you don't mind, ofcourse"
"Not at all" she replied sweetly.
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After dinner, I thanked his mom, and said goodbye to her and Derek, then left.
Derek's POV:
I had a good day today. It was a nice time with Meredith, just being here with her and watching movies. She's nice company and I like being around her. I guess.
"Honey, here take your meds" my mother smiled sweetly, handing me the pill and a glass of water. I nodded and took my meds, gave her a kiss and walked up to my room.
Today wasn't a nice day
The voices in my head were back.
But she likes me, she really does
She doesn't. Who would want to be friends with such an ugly, fat, worthless piece of trash?
Suddenly the whole feeling okay mood, turned into a very sad mood. I felt sick, sick of myself.
cut yourself
I rushed over to my beside table and pulled out a piece of metal. I sat back down on the ground, leaning against the wall and pulled up my sleeve, rubbing my fingertips over the scars the same piece of metal had already made. I held the piece of metal about an inch from my skin. It hovered there for a second while I decided whether or not it was the right thing to do. It probably was.
I pressed the metal against the inside of my wrist, just beneath the dark blue veins that snaked up my hand. I pressed the sharp edge as deep as I could and dragged it across my skin. The first cut was small and barely visible, but I still enjoyed the pain. It's definitely better than the mental pain inside of my head. I put my fingers on either side of the cut, forcing it to bleed even more. I decided to do it again, a few more times. When I was done, I put the blade away and wiped off the blood that was dripping from my arm.
The blood kept dripping out the cuts as I started to change into my pyjamas. I wrapped a towel around my arm and crawled into bed, I drifted off to sleep soon...
Very short I know, sorry for the sad chapter????? trigger warning, as I said before. review pls
