Ranting helps guys and i'm sorry if i'm annoying for it.
So i just got home. Passing all my classes straight A's, that's a good thing right? I haven't eaten nor drank anything today, i don't talk to anyone at school i kind of feel like i don't belong. I'm scared i'm being judged and shit. I'm laying in bed now just, overthinking, and i don't know how to distract myself. My anxiety spiked multiple times today and i hid in the bathroom during lunch today to cry. I feel dizzy and i don't wanna move, at least my dog is laying with me. I think i'm getting weaker and weaker with how bad i am relapsing. Every time i see a knife i take it and cut. Negative thoughts, past trauma, they fill my head. My thigh is completely covered in scars. But hey, gotta act okay right? Gotta put on a fake smile and act like nothing hurts you to make other people happy.
Thx again for listening to my annoying ass
