' GLIMPSE OF US ' - vinnie hacker (sequel)

4; the letter i regret sending

"thank you, lola. that means alot. so, i don't know if you've seen, but there's been alot of rumors going around the tiktok community. like, about what happened between us and stuff...is there any way you can make a tweet or something, telling everyone to calm down?" he asked politely, which i appreciated. most ex boyfriends would probably be more aggressive.

"oh, um, sure. uh, what do you want me to say?" i asked, frantically moving my eyes around my room.

sometimes even if no tears come out, i can feel myself crying. it's more of an emotional thing for me. i can physically have a straight face, but mentally be screaming out sobs.

"oh! uhm, yeah, i'll discuss it with breanna and we'll both decide on what we want you to say. i'll message it to you later on. um, thanks again for agreeing to this. it's really sweet, especially considering the circumstances."

i nodded again, "yeah of course, always. you were my best friend before you were my boyfriend, i'd still treat you the way i treat veondre or daniel, even if things have changed since then."

something about the few seconds of silence told me that i shouldn't have said that.

"well, uh, i should head to bed. i have a fashion show tomorrow. goodnight, vinnie."

"wait, lola, before you go..." i could hear the hesitation in his voice.

a part of me hoped that he'd say he missed me, and that he wanted to become friends again. but another part of me knows that's not gonna happen.

"i'm just..i'm really, really sorry about the letter i sent back in october. like, really...i was just in a really bad mental state, and i'm sorry i took it out on you. i never meant to hurt you. you were my best friend before you were my girlfriend too, and...yeah. i'm sorry for not acting like it. i wish i could take it back." he finished, and even though i couldn't see him i could tell his hand was rubbing his neck.

oh. the letter.

"it's fine, really, i understand. i can barely even remember what was in it." i spoke shakily, forcing a small laugh towards the end.

that was a lie. i remembered every word.

"dear lola,
i never want to see or hear from you again, ever. our friend group is the closest we'll be to each other. because of you, my heart was broken again, it was ripped out and ran over. you never deserved my love. i can't take that back, and it's made me hate you. so whatever you feel about me, you should know that i don't feel it in return. please leave me alone. i don't want to be your friend, and i hate having to know that i even agreed to staying friends in the first place. i'm moving on with my life, and i wish you were never in it. i wish we never met.
Sincerely, Vinnie.
PS, good luck with everything."

because of me, his heart was broken again. i never deserved his love.

i never told anyone about the letter. nobody at all. i knew the backlash that would come with it, from our friendgroup. instead, i just told them that he stopped answering my calls without notice. it still upset them, but i can't imagine how much more upset they'd be if they knew how much his words tore me apart.

i just obeyed his request, and didn't speak to him. i didn't call or message him, begging for answers. i didn't call wondering why we were best friends again one night, and he hated my guts the next. i just let it go.

it felt nice to hear him say he didn't mean it. i didn't believe it, but it was still nice to hear.

"oh...well, still, i don't feel that way, and i'm sorry for saying i did. so, uh, yeah...night, lola bug."

lola bug. he called me lola bug. for the first time in months, he called me lola bug

"goodnight, vin."

the line disconnected on vinnie's command, and i let out a breath i didn't know i was holding in.

that's a good sign, at least. i'm still his lola bug.

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authors note
HELLO MY PRETTIES

thoughts on the whole plot about the letter? i made sure not to mention it until now to add to the shock factor. whos side you on, vin or lola?

also, sorry if updates start coming a bit slower. im entering my college era soon, so i may be averting my priorities a bit. i'll still update at least once a week though! that's a promise

hope ur all happy n healthy <3 goodnight