' GLIMPSE OF US ' - vinnie hacker (sequel)

4; the letter i regret sending

am i going crazy?

i must be imagining things.

i squeezed my eyes shut up and opened them again, just to see the same message on my screen.

the message read, 'hey, lola! i know it's been a while, but i was wondering how you are? i wanted to talk to you about something. can i call you?'

holy shit.

we hadn't talked in months and the first time we have a conversation is gonna be on a call? i don't know if i'm ready that yet, to hear his voice.

but, even though i swore i didn't want it, i was being given a second chance. not to be his again, he already moved on from that type of dynamic between us. however, this was still a second chance to just be somewhat in his life again.

i could not pass that up.

i typed up a reply and read over it a few time, before hitting send. 'hi vinvin <3 i'm doing good! of course we can talk, call me whenever'

was calling him that nickname too soon? maybe it is. but, it just shows him that i still care about him, right? that's all i want, for him to realize that i'm still here for him.

i watch as vinnie sends a reaction to the message, before my phone indicates that he's calling me. i quickly exit the bathroom and scramble to my bed, getting under the covers. this can't go too bad. or at least i hope it doesn't.

before i have any second thoughts, i answer the call and put the phone on speaker so i don't have to hold it up to my ear, "vinnie?"

the line went silent for 2 seconds, before i heard his voice, "lola, hi! uh, how was your day?"

oh my god, his voice. his fucking voice. it's not even his voice that gave me chills, it's all the familiarity that came with it. that's the same voice that asked to be my boyfriend, the same voice that told me 'i love you'.

the same voice that begged me to stay when i left.

"my day was good. kind of overwhelming, but still good. how was yours?"

he exhaled, "same as always. anyway, so, i contacted you cause i needed to ask you to do something...i don't know how to say this, and you may already know, but...i've been dating someone. who isn't you." he paused, "sorry, that probably wasn't the best way to say it."

fuck. yeah, i did already know about that. breanna, pretty white girl who dances on tiktok. him telling me about it caught me off guard, though. i hadn't realized how much it would hurt to hear him admit it.

i don't have a right to be upset, at all. i literally left him, not only emotionally, but physically. i broke up with him and fled the country a week later. he had every right to move on and get into a happy relationship, even if i wasn't the one making him smile anymore.

"i'm...i'm really happy for you, vin-vin." i nodded.

that was true. i am happy for him. i've only heard bad things about breanna, but i know she has to be somewhat good. as far as i know, she makes him happy, and that's all i needed to know to support them.