First and Last

Panimula

panimula

julietta   ,

Writing. I am now writing some general information about my strand, pasukan na kasi bukas at mahirap na baka biglang may pa tanong ng mga ganito. I did assumed that maybe, our teachers will be a little considerate and let us enjoy our first day pero 'wag nalang munang umasa at maging handa nalang siguro. Hindi 'ko rin sila masisisi kung ganoon ang gusto nilang gawin.

Pabalik balik ang mga mata 'ko sa notebook at laptop, hapon pa lang naman at wala akong balak mag puyat. I'm not the 'night owl' type of person, I prefer to wake up early than sleeping late. Mas marami kasing matatapos pag maaga ang gising, sabi rin lagi sakin ng lola 'ko sa Batanggas. I miss her, kamusta na kaya siya roon?

Now, I'm pouting while writing my notes. Leaving someone who took care of you for the longest time was never easy. You have to get used to not seeing that person anymore, ang hirap mag adjust. Lalo na kung puno ng ligaya ang ala - ala, masakit mapalayo at iba yung pakiramdam na wala siya sa tabi mo. I sighed and focus myself more on the screen of my laptop.

" Shakespeare, Plato and Beethoven is part of the humanities. " I wrote that down. I am not sure if this is really necessary pero it's better to have something than nothing. Nakapag advance study naman na ako sa iilang core subjects namin para sa 1st Sem kaya hindi ako kabadong bumagsak.

" Sino 'to? " My forehead wrinkled. May iilang nag send sakin ng friend requests sa Facebook, and I don't know their faces, yet the names are quite familiar. My mouth formed an 'o' when I realized they're my classmates, naglabas pala ng list of students bawat strand ang page ng school namin.

" I - add 'ko b-ba? " Hindi ako sigurado, 'di ko pa 'man din sila kakilala. Pero napagdesisyonan 'ko ng i - accept nalang, para naman kahit papaano ay hindi ako masyadong mahiya bukas sa room. Introvert na nga mas lalo pang magiging introvert? that's exhausting!

I was done gathering some info so, I cleaned up my study table and go down stairs. Wala ang parents 'ko dahil binibisita nila ang mga branch ng aming business dito sa Manila, it's not that famous but many customers feedbacks are positive kaya mas lalong natutuwa at nagaganahan sila mama. Afterall, hardworks are worth it when people around you recognize it! it feels nice and very motivating, 'wag lang samahan ng pressure.

" Kakain kana ba, Sel? o hihintay mo sila mama mo? " tanong ni Tita Teresita. My aunt in my mother side, umiling ako at ngumiti. She and her daughter that is same as my age lives here too, sila ang tumutulong sa gawaing bahay. I really love them and enjoy their presences.

" Mauna na po tayo, Tita. Si Hera po? para sabay na tayong lahat sa hapag. " I asked. Umupo na 'ko sa harapan niya at pinagmasdan ang mga pagkain, natakam tuloy ako lalo especially when I saw a bowl with kare kare which is my favorite since I was a kid.

Hera, hindi ako galit pero nasaan kana? I'm so hungry at this point. Hindi pa nakatulong ang kare kare sa harapan 'ko :(( I don't wanna be disrespectful so, I decided to wait for Hera. Naliligo pala ito at ngayon narinig 'ko na ang bukas ng pinto, a sign that she's done.

Masaya kaming kumain ng hapunan, isang oras ang lumipas at dumating narin sila mama sa bahay. They ate dinner and rest for minute before saying goodnight to sleep. Habang ako ay nakatitig sa cellphone 'ko, someone send me a friend request again, akala 'ko ay tapos na.

In - accept 'ko nalang ulit ito at nilagay ang cellphone 'ko sa head board ng higaan, nagpatuloy ako sa pagbabasa ng libro. My current read is ' Thinking, Fast and Slow ' by Daniel Kahneman, self - help books kasi ang genre 'ko ngayong month. So far, I am enjoying and learning alot. Words affects me the most, kaya ito rin ang nagbibigay motibo at inspirasyon sa buhay 'ko.

And paper books hits different. I'm addicted to the smell of pages, old and vintage covers! nakakakiliti sa puso lalo na pag natapos mo na ang isa, I have a book journal and for every book that I finished, I'll rate it and write what I've learned. My favorite quote or phrase that was stuck on my mind 'till the end. Hindi nakakatamad, mas nakakasipag ito para sakin.

After an hour of reading, naisipan 'ko ng matulog. Nakaayos na ang gamit 'ko bukas, I decided to bring index cards, pens, different sizes of paper at one by one pictures 'ko. Requirements kasi 'yun sa first day, nag dala narin ako ng extra para incase na walang dala ang isa o dalawa samin, I can led some.

" Goodluck to me, walang mapapahiya sa first day. Lord, please lang. " I giggled. Pumikit na 'ko at pinatay ang lampshade. Sana ay wala masyadong negatibong mangyari ngayong unang taon 'ko sa Senior Highschool.

I can't wish na sana wala, because pain is constant. Failures are constant, hindi mawawala iyon. Pero sana ay maiwasan at hindi masyadong malala ang mangyari sakin in terms of making friends, academics and ... maybe love? I don't know, umiling ako sa naisip.

that's absurd, julietta.