Phosphenes

xiii.

why do I miss you?

is that wrong of me?

I don't think so...but maybe.

I barely knew you.

but for some reason ..

it hurts really really bad..

I really wish you weren't gone so soon

21 years old darling

you'll get justice I promise you...

i'm sorry this happened

I know its not my fault

I just wish I could've done more

I wish I would've texted

I wish I would've checked up on you

the fact I didn't kills me

I hope you know I wanted to

deep inside me

fuck... ill miss you...

ill hold the advice you gave me close

and the talks even closer

so wise and kind hearted

I remember your smile like I just saw it yesterday

should've drove you somewhere safe

but you didn't want me to

this eats my heart away

i'm sorry this happened..anyways

its funny its been a year almost since I saw you

now your gone

it disgusts me that someone could be so wronged

you don't deserve this

not at fucking all

you didn't know this but I saw you as a sister all along..

I wish i would've told you, showed you even

but I guess i'm truly ungrateful

for the world and the people within.

i'm sorry

sincerely,

me again