Living With HypeHouse

Chapter 4 - I dont know

(Play the song when * comes randomly on the story or just play it while reading)

(Replay from Chapter 3)

He told me something unexpected

3 PM

Jacob: I kind off want to tell you something...

y/n: everything okay?

Jacob: yes! everything is fine. but I've been wanting to tell you something for a very long time.

y/n: what's up?

Jacob: You know when we had a crush on each other?

y/n: yes I do remember 

Jacob: Well when I told you that I got over it I didn't I still like you

y/n: wow. that was so unexpected

Jacob: So. what do you think?

y/n: look give me some time to think about it I don't know what I'm feeling right now

Jacob: Yeah! alright, take your time. I'll see you soon 

y/n: See you soon!

end of conversation

I walked him out to the front door. We hugged and he walked away. I turned around and ran to my room and locked myself in and went to lay down on my bed I was feeling so confused I didn't know what was going on so I called Avani she was supposed to come over soon 

Calling Avani...

Avani: Hey girly! what's up? I'm on my way

y/n: Jacob just told me something unexpected. can you please hurry up? I'm feeling so confused and I think I'm going to panic

Avani: I'm almost there! Hold on

y/n: Alright! I'll come downstairs

Hangs up

I went downstairs to get a glass of water because the last thing I wanted was to have a panic attack. I went to get a glass out of the cabinet and filled it with water I turned around and saw Vinnie sitting there I didn't see him at all when I entered the kitchen

Vinnie: What's up?

I think he noticed that I was panicking 

y/n: Not so much. How about you?

Vinnie: same. want to stream later? 

y/n: Sure!

I heard the Bell of the front door so I went to open 

it was Avani so I let her in and she hugged me tight

Avani: How are you?

y/n: better now

Avani: let's go upstairs I want to hear what happened

End of conversation

We went upstairs to talk about what Jacob told me and she was shocked I didn't know if I wanted to be in a relationship after I got cheated on it sucks 

y/n: To be honest I don't know what I want at this point.

Avani: I totally understand you! it's not that easy

y/n: the thing is Jacob is a very sweet guy and handsome but I'm catching feelings for someone else.

Avani: y/n? why haven't I heard of this before?

y/n: I just noticed and I'm not 100% sure

Avani: Who?!

y/n: Vinnie.

Avani: WHAT?!

y/n: Avani! shh

Avani: sorry but I got so shocked I thought he was like a brother to you

y/n: The thing is that I and Vinnie have a lot in common and we can relate to some stuff. I and Jacob don't have the same energy if you know what I mean

Avani: I would say go for Vinnie if you feel safe with him 

End of conversation 

Time Skip

Avani just left. So I decided to take a shower before streaming with vin I took my speaker and my towel and went to my bathroom and locked the door. I played my "Feelings" playlist 

*

I started showering it was so relaxing everything was happening so fast me becoming a TikTok star and moving in with HH and Jacob telling me that he isn't over me everything was hitting hard at the same time

hot water running down my body

I just need someone in my life to give it structure

closing my eyes. and thinking about everything.

but I love you so

my family, mental health, but most of all my whole life and how I think I don't deserve all the "hype"

I'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind. This feeling's old and I know that I've made up my mind. I hope you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul

Also thinking of my Ex who just ruined my life and mistreated me and me just wanting my life to end

time skip

I got out of the shower and put on a hoodie and some shorts. And went to Vinnie's bedroom because we were going to stream but I just felt like a needed to get things off my chest. I stood at Vinnie's door and knocked I was feeling kind of nervous. I decided to not tell him I just decided to stream with him and have a fun time I was not feeling like having a mental breakdown and I felt like I needed some time to think about what I really want. After streaming with Vinnie I decided to go to bed and get some rest and I started thinking about what I wanted and who is the right person maybe Vinnie is not the right person or Jacob.

End of Chapter