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4: Weird

"Where is huwt?" He asks kindly and his eyes were crying no more. "Baby is sowwy, Malk. I'm sowwy…"

"I'm hurt." I laugh happily. "Here…" Then pointed at my stomach.

What caught me off guard is how he kissed it in an instant. My breath hitched and I immediately took a distance backwards. He looks so lost with what I did though.

"Are you huwt somewhere ewse?" He hums. I immediately shook my head as a no and cleared my throat.

Fuck.

"Are we going to pway now?" He smiles genuinely, literally like how a kid would when they're told that they're finally allowed to play or if they're given candies.

"Yes." I avert my gaze somewhere else and went out of my bedroom.

I don't even know why I said yes when I know my house is nothing but alcohol and cigarettes. I have no such thing like cars and toys. I'm not even sure if I still have decent things here in this place.

"Your house is dirty." He says the moment he followed me.

"Wow. Thanks. That was unnoticeable." I roll my eyes.

"Where are toys?" He asks. "I want to pway cars today, okay? I want lots of cars. Oh! Truck! Truck! Truck!"

"The thing is…" I sigh. "I don't have toys."

"What?" His eyes glimmer. "Where are my toys then?"

"Look, this isn't your house. I don't know exactly where yours are and even if I did, you don't have anyone with you there. Johnny hyung hasn't reached Korea yet."

He pouts. "Why?"

"What, why?" I groan.

"I want toys…"

"I don't have—"

"Please?" He reaches for my waist. "Malk…"

Dang…

He smells nice. I mean, he used my shampoo and body wash so I'm pretty certain he smells like me but it hits different. The feeling reminded me of Renjun and how he hated my body wash because it wasn't aloe vera which he likes, but cocoa butter.

I miss Renjun.

"Wow… Hug… I wuv hugs…" He says in my ears and the feeling made my heart flutter. I'm close to believing that this is Renjun and not some stranger.

I love you so much.

"Cuddles… Wow…"

I snapped. I realized it's Haechie—the baby. I sniffle and slowly remove my arms off of him even though all I really want right now is imagine this is Renjun who'd kiss me, hug me in return and tell me sweet words.

"You're crying." He pointed out and crossed his palms below my eyes, wiping the tears off. "Are you huwt?"

Damned is the right word to say. I am damned. How can I even start getting over Renjun if everything reminds me of him? Even in this situation wherein I'm with someone who's completely different from him, still reminds me of him? Fuck!

"I won't ask you to pway anymore." He pouted. "Don't cry…"

"I'm not." I scoff, pulling his hands off my face and placing it down. "Aren't you hungry?"

His stomach growled like it was programmed to do so and he laughed happily, like an angel. He looks pretty.

"Yes. I want food!"

"Let's go."

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