𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐘 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐈 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃

chapter 25

"i'm sorry." i laughed out , watching him try and hold back his smile.

"aw you look so cute." i teased as he dragged me to the bathroom.

"shut up."

i kept the smile on my face , grabbing my makeup wipes and starting to wipe it off him.

as i got to his lips , about to wipe off the lipstick the kiss came to my mind. should i bring it up right now ? fuck. okay. imma go for it.

"ash.." i started , making myself nervous.

i wanted to ask why he kissed me back , so i could either ask that or come right out and tell him my feelings.. both are a lot.

should i ask him what he sees me as ? like a friend or something else ? maybe that'll be my best pick.

"do you see me as your friend ?.. or like.." i paused , doing a hand motion.

"no." why does he have to give such a simple answer.

"no ?..." i wanted him to say more , that's not enough.

he nodded , "okay.. um. did that kiss mean anything to you ?"

i sighed , relieved i finally got it out.

"yeah. did it mean anything to you ?"

holy. this is it.

"yeah." i threw away the makeup wipe , now just standing there.

now we both knew the kiss meant something , but maybe that doesn't necessarily mean he knows i have feelings for him. should i tell him then ? okay maybe i should wait ?...

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that's what i did. i waited.

i wasn't gonna wait long , i was just nervous to tell him. i didn't know if it was a good idea , but even if it isn't i'm doing it..

at some point we went to the store , it was only open a few hours but both me and ashtray went with fez.

and right now ? i was sitting on the roof of it.

it was night time so the moon was out , what a coincidence. i laid on my back , letting my thoughts take over.

after everything , brielle wasn't my friend.
my dads dad.
i never really knew my mom.
rue isn't someone i can rely on.
i like ashtray.
and he killed my dad.
the kiss.
what people think of me.

it was all sudden , it felt like it all happened so quickly , so much in such little time.

tears started to fall , it was a lot. and i didn't want to cry about it , but in that moment that's all i could really do.

i wiped my tears , hearing noises. ashtray.

"what are you doin up here , ma ?"

i smiled , feeling more tears fall. god this is really pathetic.

"are you crying ?" he got closer , making me laugh , trying to cover up the fact i was actually really upset.

"yeah , i don't know." i laughed again , laying down again , him laying down shortly after me.

he held my hand , i knew ashtray didn't like showing affection , so him doing this was enough for me.

i decided this was a better time than ever.

i turned my face to him , seeing him already looking at me.

"ashtray.." i talked low , since we were close.

i took a long pause , getting nervous.
"i like you."

AUTHORS NOTES.

y'all i had no other way to do this 😭 don't hate me if this is bad

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thank you ❤️

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i was gonna do that , but i kinda have an idea since the title is "you're the ONLY one i need." ykyk

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thank you sm !
and i did , so creds to you <3

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