𝗚𝗘𝗧 𝗛𝗘𝗟𝗣 | MISC & RANTS

2 | my middle school drama

Note: this all actually happened (i wish this was fictional)

to most people, high school is the place to get more PTSD but for me, it was middle school and I am not even kidding. My middle school life sucked

So basically I had this crush on this boy (let's call him Luke) so I wrote him a letter confessing everything. I was 11 and dumb. I even drew 2 columns for yes or no. He found the letter but his friends found it too. Did I forget to mention that Luke and his friends were popular? they were teasing him like crazy and he was freaking blushing! 

the news of my letter flew toward almost everyone in my grade and they were so sure that I was about to get rejected, then the letter came by I immediately ran to the bathroom stall and to my surprise it wasn't a No

I was freaking out! not many actually get approval instead of a rejection, I was over the moon. he came to me and started having a casual conversation and there I was couldn't even understand when he said yes, for some time that was it, I didn't know if we were officially dating or not but I pretended it was

he introduced me to his friends and one of them was a really nice guy (name shall be Cameron) we got along really well

The dating almost felt like two awkward friends talking and I didn't know why I felt that

 the "popular girls" after knowing all this tried to be extra friendly with me (mainly one girl let's call her Bella) because she thought she will have a chance with Cameron who was close to me nowadays

one day after the winter break Luke told me that he was going to Canada but he said he will be back and I waited. I didn't have his number because I thought my parents would go nuts and I didn't have any social media at that time. I let it go

My friend group was a small one but we were close (mainly to one let's name her Emma) I was friends with Emma since kindergarten and the other followed along the way. Emma and I have been always put together in the same class

Then time passed, and it was 8th grade now and Emma was not in my class anymore. I rushed to see which class it was and surprisingly was the class with a lot of "popular girls" and boys but what really surprised me the most was she was talking to Bella like she has been friends with her forever. In the recess or intervals I see her walking past me I smiled at her but she completely ignored me

Cameron was in that class, he came to see me at the rooftop (Luke and I often spot) and I stupidly asked if he and Luke were still in touch? he told me that "Luke is never coming back, his mom got a permanent job there" Cameron was hesitant to say this but he also said "Luke never really liked you, he didn't like you at all, I asked him why he said yes and all his reply was I was bored"

Honestly, I didn't know what to feel I always thought we weren't really dating anyway but something in the back of my head said otherwise. To calm me down he patted my shoulders but what I didn't know was that Bella watched this happening and she was beyond pissed, I didn't even know why

The next day everyone was whispering, pointing at me and talking behind my back which was really weird. my other friends filled me in that the word was that I am a witch and that I can magically make them fall in love with me if I touch them or they touch me and I don't know if they are 11 or are they 5. Literally, every boy in my grade avoided touching ANY girls because of ME and wanna know something really crazy these same guys who avoided touching literally just hit me every day for the rest of the year. like they would send one of the boys and just hits me in the back of my head really painfully like I cried that entire night, it wasn't always physical but they tried to mentally get to me

Moreover bullying increased, I wouldn't even mind getting bullied by seniors (unless it's not physical) but I was getting bullied by students of my same year!

Even Emma believed all those from BELLA! like she tossed all those memories from me just so she can hang out with popular ones

Cameron and I had a talk he apologised for everything, he apologised on behalf of Bella which was unnecessary 

after suffering that whole year I changed schools and now I feel safe in this environment although my old school was better students here are a lot better than there. Cameron and I lost touch and with the rest of my friends (except Emma we already lost touch anyway)

and that's how folks I became a witch.

Even writing this down I feel they all were really stupid, later I learned that these avoiding touches died down and now they are all really close. Thank God I escaped from that hell

Although some of these were really worse experiences, I had to go to a therapist and she made me wanna quit that school. But in writing, I try to show it very positively but I cant 

to everyone at school including my teachers

and to all those lovely people who gave away their time to read my shit

I am sorry if I ruined your day but I was in terrible need of a vent

I know it's like a Netflix rom-com, Netflix should hire me I can throw away all bad netflix show that they release nowadays (except for Heartstopper man I am in love) and only keep the best. If this was one I would probably end up with Cameron (which would be weird but I admit he used to have a crush on me LIKE I AM NOT DUMB like Netflix bitches okay!?) 

ps, Cameron never dates Bella. He is now dating a newly transferred student (I still got spies)

thank you for reading

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