Get A Room!

~:*:~ Eighty-Eight ~:*:~

But things with Chace have been different from the start. Neither of us relayed our true feelings, so we had to work excessively hard to keep the flame alive despite all the fights and heartache. Now that we both seem to be on the same page about our mutual feelings, it was time to take that scary next step. For the first time I'm unsure of how things will go. Will he refuse to date me despite his feelings? Will he be willing to go public with our relationship after years of being in the closet? Will I be able to keep up with him given my inexperience with men? Will he even want to have sex with me? Will I be better than his previous lovers?

God, just thinking about other men touching him in the past gets my blood boiling! I didn't even know him then, yet I still have this strange, possessive feeling. I wish he was still a virgin; I wanted him to save himself for me! A ridiculous notion, I know... and especially coming from the guy that consistently fucked girls in our shared room. Damn, Chace must have been hurting like hell each time I told him to find somewhere else to sleep! To know that your crush is currently shoving his dick into someone other than you-... ugh, I'm such a shithead! I owe Chace a lifetime of apologies...

But for now, I owed him a confession. Just kissing him wasn't enough! I had to tell him how I truly felt, and then I would properly ask him out on a date.

~*~*~*~

I ran back to our room and threw open the door with dramatic vigour.

"CHACE, I REALLY-"

Paxton lowered his book and looked at me with such pity.

"Wait, what the fuck are you doing here?!" I hollered at him as he sprawled out further on Chace's bed.

"Damn... I just thought Nate was always joking when he said you were stupid."

"Fuck you! Just tell me why you and Chace haven't switched back?! I told him to live with me again after I-... ugh, never mind!"

I left the room and ran through Massey to Nate's room. I banged on the door incessantly until Chace opened up.

"DIDN'T I TELL YOU TO MOVE BACK INTO OUR ROOM?!" I screamed.

He grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me into the room, not wanting to argue in the hallway for all to witness. It also seemed like Nate was spending another night in Jedson's room to help with his casts, so we had our privacy in here.

"I already made a deal with Paxton. He really needs to get away from Nate, and I still need to be away from you, Ian."

"But the kiss-"

"It doesn't change anything. In fact, you just confused the situation even more!"

"I thought kissing you would have a fairly OBVIOUS meaning! How can you be confused?!"

He let out a heavy sigh before asking, "Did you just kiss me as a way to get me back into the room?"

"What the fuck?!" I admit that I wondered that too at first, but I know now that it's not true. And it hurt to hear Chace accuse me of it.

"You found out that I'm gay, right? Leona must have told you."

Damn, he was quick witted.

"I may have been informed by accident..."

"I knew it! I'm going to kill her... she had no right to disclose my secret!"

"Give the girl a break, man... it really was unintentional. She felt like shit after it slipped out..."

He ignored my defense of his best friend and rambled on, "She was acting all guilty and shifty this morning on the soccer field, and then suddenly she's eager to get us talking again during the move-in? Just the other day she was cursing your name and helping me avoid you-"