Our Broken Letters

Kaden's letter

My Darling Kate,

Not a day passes by that I don't think of you,

Every waking moment is filled with thoughts of that day,

The day when I messed up,

The day when my mouth opened, and my tongue loosened,

It wreaked havoc upon us,

My tongue had no bones, Yet it broke your heart,

I could tell you were hurt,

By the way, you bitterly spat out your words,

3 words are all it took to make me fall apart,

And to make you regret your choice,

The minute you walked out, I fell to my knees in regret,

I should have bit my tongue,

I should have let it bleed but never let it loose,

My eyes popped out,

Tears rushed senselessly, enough to flood a city

My bones too weak to hold me up,

My hands trembling, covering my mouth,

My brain filled with regret, and my heart filled with shock,

Each night I reach for you, only to realize you're not there,

My hands tremble, as my eyes burn again,

I feel empty and numb,

Then I see you in my dreams,

Your long raven hair, and your caramel brown eyes glistening in the sun

Your coffee-coloured skin, shining when the sun's rays touch it

If only I could touch you, and kiss your gentle lips,

If only I could feel your hands in mine again,

But then I wake up, and the grief washes over me like a furious tornado,

It sucks all of my life away again,

My heart barely limping through it all,

I miss you, and your eyes, lips ... voice,

The way we kissed each other goodbye,

The way your nose scrunched in frustration,

The way your hands fit perfectly into mine,

The way you filled my life with pure bliss,

The way we made jokes telepathically and burst out cackling,

The way you snuggled into my chest when it got too cold,

The way you jumped and smacked my arm every time I kissed your neck abruptly,

The way you shivered when we cuddled cuz my icy rings touched your skin,

The way you gave me your full attention whenever I got needy,

The way you massaged my scalp while I lay in your lap,

The way you pretended to be asleep while I sweetly whispered into your ear,

The way your eyes lit up every time I asked you about what book you were reading,

The way you dressed up and shyly asked me how you looked,

The way you looked away to hide your blush whenever I complimented you,

The way you nibbled on sweets, as we watched the Titanic for the 10th time,

The way you would be entranced by the stars and I by you,

The way I sat in the coffee shop,

And drowned in your eyes while you sipped your coffee peacefully,

The way we sat by the sea in comfortable silence, watching the waves come and go,

The way you would be jittery all day, before finally giving me a present,

The way you managed to convince me to read a book with 600 pages,

The way hesitation clouded your eyes before asking me a personal query,

The way your hands glided across the page as you got an idea for your story,

The way you would smile to yourself, as I stroked your hair,

The way you would close your eyes when I strummed my guitar,

The way you would stare at me when I made us both cocktails,

The way you would laugh at my inability to read your cursive writing,

The way you would comfort me when I was at my lowest,

The way you would frown when I took my antidepressants,

The way you would steal my sweaters, and pretend you were guiltless,

The way you would wear short skirts, and flash your innocent smile at me,

The way you would laugh at my cheesy jokes, and try to one-up me,

The way you would poke my arm, hinting at another late night walk,

The way you would encourage me to sing with you, grinning as I blushed in embarrassment,

The way you would jump up and down in excitement when I got you a cat,

The way you would pop your bottom lip out in frustration,

The separation is killing me, It's tearing me apart slowly but surely,

My heart had become sore, it hurts every time I breathe,

I need you since you're my obsession,

You're the air I need to breathe,

You're my love, But you deserve better,

So go be free, Run away from me,

As that's the only way you will truly be happy...