i tried to time my walking to "accidentally, unintentionally" bump into him on my way home after school.
i slowed my walking for him to walk faster and catch up to me, and sometimes i'd speed walk to catch up to him. when people talked about us being together, i wanted it to be real. kind of.
i didn't like when other girls would flirt with him.
he doesn't talk to me much. we had the occasional conversation in band class, i would call him out on all of his shit just so he would think i was funny and start a conversation. i tried making it sound like my voice wasn't as annoying as it actually sounds so he doesn't think i'm annoying. but that made me realize i wasn't being myself.
i thought he had a little something towards me. meaning feelings. but no. he liked her, the girl i didn't talk to much. yeah she had style, she was kind of pretty. but i never caught him staring at her like a normal guy would when he likes a girl. it didn't look like he liked her. i caught him staring at me sometimes, heck, i had two dreams about him. dead serious. in the past two days.
it was spring break. the day of. everyone was excited and bursted through the doors when the school bell rang. all of my friends going crazy, i was confused as to what was happening. he asked her out. i thought it was a joke when i was told he liked her. but it wasn't. i ran after him and he ignored me, he continued to speed walk home. i gave up. i just left school that day. i then realized that i didn't need him, i just need to be myself and let people who like me, like me for me. he's an asshole. grade a. i guess i had a little something towards him, but i wanted him to like me more than i liked him.
see that's my problem. i'm not attracted to people. i want them to be attracted to me.
hey y'all, this one is an old chapter about a little someone i have in my head. I LITERALLY HAD THIS DREAM ABOUT HIM LAST NIGHT ASKING ME OUT WTH. AND I DONT EVEN ACTUALLY LIKE HIM THAT MUCH. this one is just a filler chapter also..
⚠️I AM IN NEED OF REQUESTS!! feel free to comment or dm me requests!⚠️
-t
