Somewhere behind the sun

Chapter 1:

It was dark and rainy. And so damn cold. Half past ten, the lights were swinging to the melody of the wind. Once more I looked around. It was just so weird seeing the house like that, out of this perspective and probably for the last time for a long period of time. It was weird, very weird. As I heard the foodsteps approching I pretended beeing busy. I was just as good at pretending as I was in Lying. At least something I am good at, I guess. I used to tell myself I was going to be a famous actress, someday. But the pressure and all of the work..You know, I could probably not handle this. Could I? Well atleast it was the only job that somehow sounded kinda good to be honest. But here I am focusing on taking as much time as I can tieing up my shoes, as usall. I felt my mother watching me and looked up. That sad, happy look in those big brown eyes of hers. I've came to the siloution, that I wouldn't never understand this woman. My mom reminded me of athena, the godess athena. She used to tell me so much about her and it took me so long to realise how equal they are. My mom was smart, she was the smartest. And as hard as I try not to I rolled my eyes. I hate it when someone is emotanally touched, expacially my mother. That feeling. It makes me wanna throw up. And as soon as I grapped my jacket I was out the door. Letting rain drop on my rough skin and my strong hair, which was seeking out of my Hoodie. It was time. "You got this", mom said getting her way through the invisible mess flouding around me, surrounding me, like I'm some kind of helpless kid. I breathe out heavily, while getting my self together. It's time "Bye", I say. And then all I remeber is I ran.. I ran until my eyes hurted from the heavy wind punching against me, or was that just my heart beating through my chest? Beating trough every little vain I had and through all of my damn bones. I ran until my tears made their way down my whole body, till' I felt them splashing on the ground. I ran until my legs couldn't hold the weight of my disgusting body. I ran until I crowled on the ground. Till' the moon was my only friend on this overwhelming road of emotions, or was it an actual road I was on?..