𝙆𝙖𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙧 '𝙨 𝙍𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙚

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Okay she don't like me because a few years ago i did something

We had this cat and she loved that mf. I hated that mf.

This why her momma kicked me out the house along with some other shit

I was like 19 at the time

She was like 9

The cat jumped on me and i pushed it off me and it hit its head

And .. i grabbed it and turned it upside down and started shaking it. Why ? i have no idea but that was my last straw with that mf

Me and my sister was in the house by ourselves and she was crying telling me to stop

She pushed me and the cat fell out my hand

Long story short the cat died

Ngl i had laughed when it fell out my hand because if she didn't push me i would've let the shit go

I was like "you a dumbass, i was gone let it go look you done killed the cat"

I got cussed out and put out after that

I was never good with pets anyway

I killed hella gerbils, and then li rat shits when i was younger

"You still mad bout that dumbass cat"? i asked

"Can you stop talking to me"?

Idk why she never wanted to be around me, i'm fun asl

Like i remember we was playin one day and i pulled a knife out on her and she started crying

Like girl i was just playin

I used to tell everybody i was gone stab them had all the family members scared to come over

But to me it was just jokes

That's why sometimes i wonder why i was never put in one of them places people go when something wrong with them

"So you don't love me nomo"? i asked

Maybe if i never acted the way i act we would be closer

"I do love you"

Hope she know i'm not gone say it back

I remember i made momma cry one day. She told me she loved me and i wouldn't say it back

I made her cry a lot

I'm not proud of it but it ain't shit i can go to change it

"Okay then why you be acting like that"?

"Because you're scary"

Girl you like what ? 14 ? calm yo scary ass down

"I would never hurt you" i said

I wouldn't, even tho i don't act like it i do love my sister

"But i got a question"

"What"?

"If i did something really bad , like really really bad. You think you could still love me"?

"Depends what you did. But yea, if you killed somebody nie idk"

Shiiitiitititititititititt

"Whatever you do, don't be like me. Don't make momma cry like i did. You the only one left that she got hope in. Mari dead, i'm fucked up, but you got potential"

She ain't had hope in me at all. I was always the one fucking up. I was like the black sheep out of the family.

I'm violent, can't show emotions, find the weirdest shit funny allat