When we're over -Yeongyu

I hate this... I fucking hate myself for not forgetting and moving on. Trust me I've tried but I can't. I want to forget our memories together and that night. I didn't really expect anything from anyone until you came. You came to me at full speed making my world crumble. From the start, you always take advances but I shut them down, not wanting to get hurt. But your persistence and beautiful personality changed that. Day by day I started to fall in love with you. And I regret that, so much. "We" fell "inlove" yeah, so funny but I was blind and oblivious back then. We started to go on dates, building dreams together, it was perfect right? Until something— I mean someone came into the picture. It wasn't even a gradual shift, in a span of a day I knew we changed. You started to ignore my calls and messages, making excuses whenever I tried to be with you. I knew it was because of him... But, oh how dumb was I to think I could fix us. One day, you magically came back to me, kissed me deeply, I should be happy, but I wasn't. You reeked of alcohol, I felt those dried tears on your face, there was no love in that kiss, nor to the following of that heated kiss. You had a problem, with him. I found it funny because the next day you were out of the door, back to him. I'm pathetic, I know that he's cheating but I reasoned that he wasn't "caught in the act". Until I finally snapped and followed you, sure enough I saw you with him, happy, unlike me. You kissed him, in front of everyone, that never happened between us... That night, I confronted you and YOU laughed at me. Saying that it was just to feel good about yourself, YOU never loved me because YOU loved him, YOU waited for my "oblivious" self to finally figure it out so we could "break-up". You left me there, heartbroken beyond repair, crying until the dawn. I tried to get you back even if I knew you won't, so pathetic am I right? Since then, I have been broken, and still am. I left to start anew, but you've been haunting my memories.

"I've learned to lose you, can't afford to
Tore my shirt to stop you bleedin'
But nothin' ever stops you leavin'
Quiet when I'm comin' home and I'm on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that"

"But nothin' is better sometimes
Once we've both said our goodbyes
Let's just let it go
Let me let you go"

I hate you, Choi Yeonjun. But I hate myself more for being so inlove to the point I couldn't leave you even if I was hurting. I confronted you too late, I was beyond repair.

"Please, someone... save me. It hurts... so bad."

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All of this is in Beomgyu's point of view, guess that "someone" who broke Beomgyu's relationship with Yeonjun.