cant even get up in the morning.... !TOMMYINNIT ANGST!

why

a/n:OMG A UPDATE FROM ME! I THOUGHT IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE, no but fr sorry for not uploading my brain and shz if yk yk

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Tommy's pov:

fuck

im so fucked

i diddnt think to lock the door

what the fuck is-

"LISTEN TO ME BOY" my dad yells

*slap*

"y-yes, im sorry what where you saying" i said apologizing for not listening to him

"i was just watching the tv... and just as something really big is about to happen. YOU FUCKING SCREAM OVER IT." my dad yells

"im sorry. it wont happen again" i say knowing that it wont do

"THATS WHAT YOU SAID LAST TIME BOY. IM NOT LETTING IT SLIP THIS TIME" he spits at me

called it

he picks me up by my shirt and punches me right in my jaw, and then he drops me and stomps on my chest winding me. my throat hurts, i think im screaming but i dont know. everything is blurry and quiet

im dissociating again, am i even real, humans cant just not be there but i am when i dissociate

he picks me up and smashes a lamp over my head

i guess i need a new one

i feel the blood trickle down my numb body

i cant move

im trapped in my own body

he starts choking me. i cant breathe anymore ,he throws me to the floor and starts kicking my head, ribs , spine, neck... just all over me where it would hurt alot

my throat really stings i must be screaming really loud. well is it really me if im not doing it. i feel like me and my body are two different people. in that case, he must be screaming really loud

but i am me. and i feel my cuts open not his. he diddnt do this i did. i feel like i cant control my own body, and i cant. it feels like someone else is doing every thing for me

oh, dad left

well

i need to get up now

i feel my vision clear and i can control my self again

its weird. its like my body just switches off to protect me from the torture

what ever i need to sleep , ill check the dms tomorrow cuz i can hear my pc blowing up. most likely a mad will

Wilbur's pov:

i hear a loud bang and i ask tommy what it was

he just leaves

wtf

i quickly end stream and stay in the vc in case he joins back, what was that, is he ok

he has been acting really weird all month, i dont know what is going on i hope he is ok he's been getting skinnier and he has been more tired, i want to do something but im worried im just overthinking

what if something fell over, or his friends where coming round, that would explain the sound and the way he left

see i knew i was overthinking

but i still fell bad

fuck it i am going to text him

i leave the vc and open our messages

*>gremlin boy<*

tommy 5:00pm

where did u go 5:00pm

big man 5:01pm

hey 5:01pm

tommy you are worrying me 5:01pm

tommy call me please 5:05pm

tommy please 5:07pm

*call not answered*

tommy pick up 5:07pm

tommy are you ok 5:07pm

please answer me 5:08pm

... call me tomorrow or i will go to your house, call me by 7 pm 5:10pm

(btw sorry if that was messed up im writing on laptop)

i go to Phils contact and call him

"hey m8888, whats up" i hear Phil say

"im panicking, tommy and me where on stream and i heard a loud bang and then he left" i say fast

"hey hey calm down, he probably invited some friends around and forgot so he had to end" phil says

"Thats what i thought but he isnt answering any of his texts and i told him to text me by 7 tomorrow or i am going round" i say

"ok,if thats what you want to do" phil says just listening to me rant

"but you must have noticed hes been acting weird recently, hes skinnier, hes sleeping in, hes been quieter, what if something is happening to him right now and all we are doing is talking" i say almost having a panic attack pace-ing my office

"hey calm down, he has been weird but thats teenagers for you, they can be confusing ."phil says trying to calm me and it works, but you can hear by phils voice he is also worried

i thank him for calming me and leave the call

phils pov:

will just called confirming my suspicions

i have noticed that tommy had been acting off for a while but i was worrying that i was overthinking but will sees it to which means that something is defiantly wrong because will is a stiff as a board when it comes to sensing problems

all i have to do now is to figure out what is going on or think of a way to meet up with him, all of us meet him, i know that dream is planning a Florida meet up so that is our chance

so we need a plan

we will go to tommy at the meet up and mostly be with him, sort of cling to him to see how he is when being analyized in person, its easier to spot problems in real life and it wont be suspicious as will tends to be clingy to tommy and i will just blame it on the excitement of meeting everyone

first I am going to try and fix his sleeping schedule

And then I will try to see if he struggles with eating

i hope he is ok, i dont want him to be in any pain, hes like my son. i dont know how ill react if i find out that he has been struggling for a while and we just diddnt notice

he is only 17 he shouldn't have to be in any pain, so im am hoping that its not what it seems and he is ok

(in this au he has just turnt 17 because tommy is 18 in a week and im not ready for that ;-;)

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a/n YOOOOOO WHAT DID YALL THINK AGAIN SORRY FOR NO UPDATED MY BRAIN FEELS LIKE A WARM BOWL OF PORRADGE AND I HATE PORRADGE LOL.

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