my thoughts so far

only part

nothing is real. I don't understand why people take everything so seriously. when I'm in the bus on the way or from school everyone moves and talks like they've been programmed. it's horrible. how does no one else see it. the bus drivers all act the same. everyone does. if someone judges you why should you care if it's not real. there's such a social pressure causing people not to do things and it's complete bullshit. the only reason I do the stuff that I do is bevause I don't think anything is real. but really how can it be. we live on a floating rock in the middle of endless others. "there's no other life out there" , oh cut the crap of course there is we literally have endless possibilities but no one will ever know because humans are so small and meaningless that they won't ever be brave enough to see.
Welp that's just what I think. I just don't understand why everyone takes everything so seriously. maybe it's because they're programmed to think that everything is important and their choices are life threatening and everything means something when it CLEARLY DOES NOT. what about when we die? I bet nothing ever dies but it just lies. rotting until it decomposes into nothing. there's no heaven. there's no god. there's no hell. everyone is just driven to believe things other people tell them to. if you tell someone something enough they'll end up believing it, that's how cults and religions are formed. praying to the sky. the sky made up of fucking electric pieces to trick everyone into fake comfort for awhile until bam. everything goes. everything dies. everything comes to an end. there are no happy endings nothing good ends with something good. like electronic devices. they drive people insane. literally. I bet they can be used to hypnotize billions of people at once. but the government has lots do do with everything. they are always. watching. there's always someone who can see you that you don't know about.they could be in your phone camera, in a car , in a bus , in a school camera. the government has higher power so they could easily be allowed to watch and pry on whoever they want to. it could be you. they could be watching you for no reason. to make sure you haven't figured out their secrets. that's why they kill anyone who ever gets close to revealing any of the secret stuff they do. I bet they have brain controlling devises which have been used when someone told the public something about life.
maybe dead people aren't really dead. maybe they were brought into this world to make you think that everything matters and that it is all a test. HOW WOULD YOU KNOW??
how do you know that the person next to you isn't a robot and that you actually know them? how do you know that the government hasn't swapped them for some advanced technology to make you tell them information? how do you know that your partner isn't just pretending to like you? you'd never know unless you asked, and then they'd tell you their feelings.whats a feeling? a chemical reaction at best. what is pain? if you're in pain just tell yourself "I don't know what pain is" and it should go away right? since everything is supposedly based on these things we call 'thoughts' how do you know that your thoughts aren't being read to you from someone. like youre a fucking puppet in their game. well, you'd never know.